On one hand, whenever I post a new fanfic I almost always crave reviews. Good reviews, bad reviews, constructive criticism . . . whatever anyone has to offer. So I advertize it in my sig, in my blog, doing whatever I can to make sure that everyone and their dog knows about it. Well, that's a bit of an exaggeration, but I do expect people to read my stuff and reply, though I never ask or force anyone to make any reviews unless they state in their sig that they take requests.
Yet on the other hand, I am frightend of what other people will say about my work. While I am reasonably confident that my fics are fairly well-written, I can't say for sure unless someone tell me so, and I'm probably not a very good judge of my own quality as a writer is often blinded by his own biased eye and will therefore be unable to find much problems with his work unless he's editing/revising.
Sure, most of the replies that I do get are usually quite positive, but I still get this paranoia going on and my mind starts to ask questions like, "What if this character is too bland or annoying or underdeveloped?" Or "What if I wrote something that will offend people?" And "What if the plot doesn't make sense?" Among the many many other things that also frighten me, though those tend to be the most prominant. Generally these fears and worries are unfounded and most people tend to like what I've wrote with few complaints or questions regarding the plot, characters, etc, but I still worry that someone, some day may just write me a review ripping my works apart. What do I do if that happens?
Well, as it so turns out, I have also thought of what to do if that were to happen. I'll do as I always do: Just reply as best as I can to the reviewer's points, complaints, and criticisms. That's really all I can do, and I don't think I can do any better.
I'm sure many writers have these conflicting impulses whenever they decide to show their work to others for the first time, even if they have been doing it for years. But I suppose my desire to become a better writer and get a lot of replies (not that I am saying that the two are always interconnected, but I feel that I could become better with a few more constructive reviews) outweighs my fear of getting critized harshly, which also seems to be the case of most writers that I've read about. And anyway, if I plan to get published someday I will need to learn to take rejection and criticism, although I think that I take it reasonably well, as I rarely ever shout or yell at harsh reviews.
But I suppose my fear of harsh criticsm isn't an entirely bad thing. After all, it usually encourages me to write even better so they won't have anything to critize. Not sure how many times that actually works, though.