stress levels through the roof

Entry posted by Xinlo April 2, 2014

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I apologize for this spew and you don't need to actually read it I just needed to get it all out

okay so let me break this down

I have roughly two weeks until finals. In the grand scheme, that means 3 weeks until I need to start job hunting for the summer or (heaven forbid it comes to this) go back to my old job. So that is a giant stress

but let's go more immediate

I have two large projects to do as finals, two large written tests, and three practical proficiency tests on top of the weekly homework they're still giving us. I have two weeks.

Now add to that the thin ice I'm on after nearly failing half my courses last semester, failing one of my midterms, and being behind in two other classes. Plus one of my projects is really huge (I need to transcribe a song into a score as well as individual instrument parts) and I just discovered what I thought was an easy 2-part horn line is actually a 5-part, which more than doubles the work I need to do on it.

I have my final road test tomorrow for my full license application.

I am going to a concert (which would be great but circumstances) for FOUR DAYS where I'll be able to get hardly anything done, the four days I have to practice my bass playing for the proficiency tests next week (for a class I passed by millimetres last semester. Passing it is also a requirement for my major next year. )

this also causes me to miss one of my finals which I will hava to make up the day after with a minuscule amount of preparation.

PLUS I bought a new bass that was easier to play and would really help with my tests but it had to go in for repairs which were supposed to be done saturday but aren't and who knows how much that's gonna cost

and finally my work ethic improved last week and I was attempting to get so much done and then I was hit with a chronic migraine that incapacitated me for 3 days halting all preparations for this stuff

the universe seems to be trying to do everything it can to screw me over and I have two weeks left. at this point I want to just give up