blogs_blog_1374

No. You don't need a counselor - there's nothing wrong with you. It's human nature to envy others. To hate them...even if that hate shouldn't be there, it is normal because you are jealous you aren't in as high a place as they are. So what? You don't need to be like them - make something of yourself that isn't like them, for that would be special.

 

Trust me, you don't need a counselor. What you have is a simple inferiority complex. You feel lower than your friends - I've felt the same way with my siblings, because I feel they've achieved higher things than me, that they're better because one of them is writing a novel and the other one is special because he plays guitar better than I ever have.

 

What I thought was, so what? I'm better at some things they can't do. And I'm certain there are things you've done that can match up to your friends achievements. For instance, you seem like you're a skilled writer - be proud of it.

 

Like I commented in your last entry, don't sell yourself short. You'll accomplish things in life that are better than them. What's important is that you're happy with what you do, and you're proud of your accomplishments. And even if you aren't, push yourself to a point you are happy. Reach for higher goals if you want to.

 

Just don't give up so easily on trying to accomplish goals in life - if you set your mind to it, you can do anything. Remember that.

I hate many people, but absolutely no one more than myself."

 

Welcome to the club.

I considered posting this comment, then thought that there's no point as it's pretty worthless. Then I thought that, were it my blog, I might be pleased to see a comment like this. So:

 

I've read through your most recent batch of entries, and have been nipping in and out of here from time to time. Just wanted to say that I admire how much thought and effort you put into your own character, and how you are confident enough to make candid entries.

First, there is no need to apologize: you sounded quite lucid and rational in your entry.

 

Secondly, I can understand how you felt, mostly through personal experience coupled with some imagining. It is not abnormal to feel like how you felt, nor is it completely irrational. Rather, it has basis in rationality (your anger at what you perceive as your failings) but is applied the wrong way, by seeking outlit through hatred, which is itself irrational.

 

Now, I am not a councilor, nor am I skilled in such line; I apologize if what I say is sappy, illogical or the like.

 

I would not call your behavior immature, and yet I would as well. It is in some ways immature, but in others it is not. A perfectly mature person can experience such feeling. Why? Because all of mankind has a wish to succeed, and have their success acknowledged. When we feel that we have not succeeded, or even if we have, and acknowledgement is not given, we feel dissatisfied, and often angry, both at ourselves an at others. Now, this is normally an emotion conflict and not so much an intellectual conflict, although in cases it can be both. It is logical that it would be worse when first experienced, and at times when it is brought to full attention.

 

I have read many of your blog entries, and seen you from time to time. I do not think you're immature, nor noobish. Your posts seem quite mature and lucid, as does your overall character. Like Peach said, I would not sell yourself short: self depreciation is like a disease, and like all such things, it grows if allowed. At first it has little or no power, just a nagging doubt. Here it is at its weakest, and can be destroyed. But if you allow it a foothold, it grows larger and larger, and is harder to dismiss.