Oh My.....
What is one supposed to do when they have an art project due tomorrow and another project due on Friday, but you're leaving on Friday at noon for a two day track meet after doing a three-hour radio show to be stuck on a bus for five hours and you have a program that's happening Sunday to set up for your R.A. class and a powerpoint for another part of the same class that's due in a week and a half, but at the same time, you feel that you're on the verge of absolute collapsion because of getting heat exhaustion on Monday, finding out that your childhood hero died before you ever got to thank him, having the friends of another person you thought was your friend go and verbally attack you on the internet with some of the most vile, inappropriate and immature language you've ever seen along with the promise that they will physically harm you if they ever meet you, finding out that one friend was in a really bad bike accident on Tuesday while another is also going through a really rough time and getting super worried about both of them because you're not at the same college as one of them and you feel hesitant asking the other if he's ok because you're worried he might take it the wrong way and go off on you like the last person you asked about how they were feeling and lose another friendship over it, and being so stressed that you just want to go hide somewhere and cry, because you just don't know how much longer you can keep all of this up and continue telling people that you're doing "okay" when in reality there's nothing you'd like more is a genuine hug and some help getting through all of this?
It's only fourth week.....I shouldn't be feeling like this, but I'm absolutely terrified.....I need to get this art project done but if start pulling all-nighters, I'm worried that I'm going to put myself in a even worse position for the rest of the week.....my parents and friends don't seem to realize just how stressed and completely depleted I feel right now.....I look completely exhausted......the physical trainers and my hall director are telling me that I need to drink more water and get electrolytes and nutrients in my system, but I am and it doesn't seem to be making any difference......I keep feeling that I'm on the verge of having a panic attack or just passing out.
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