I Don't Even (Recap 02)
This week, this week... was pretty ordinary, but some interesting stuff did happen. Actually, I’m lying, it was a pretty abnormal week.
My mother is insisting that my brother and I see a councillor (is that the right councillor, or should it be counsellor? I don’t even know) because my brother and I got into a physical skirmish on Tuesday night. He’s a bit bigger than me and I won’t go into details, but I say “skirmish” and not “fight” because victory was had by one of us in about thirty seconds. Separate councillors (counsellors?), I think. I keep telling her no, partly because I don’t ever want to step into one of those places again and partly because I’ve just got too much on my plate IRL to even consider trying to make room for a councillor (I should just google it....).
I feel like I should probably be feeling a lot worse than I do at the incident, since my brother seems to be suffering more than me (although we’re also both very different in personality, so it could just be coping differences?). I know that I’m a master of internalizing my emotions, but even still, I should feel more beat up about this? Or maybe everyone else is just blowing the incident out of proportion (although seriously why would I be the only one treating it normally)? I do feel like I should feel worse, but... meh. I’m fairly certain that I’m pretty messed up, but at least that would mean that I’m interesting to learn about, which means more readers?
I work at a nearby YMCA center as one of the youth program instructors, and the head of our aquatic division was recently announced to be taking control of the youth division as well (that’s a lot of work and I admire the ability to shoulder it). Things are already improving; she’s set up an extremely effective communication binder for us to use when we need shift coverage, and I have already taken advantage of it to claim more hours for myself. Our aquatics division is apparently the best in the region (or province? It was one of them), and since she’s organizing the youth division the same way, I have high hopes. It certainly feels more organized than with our last two heads.
One thing I’ve noticed in my classes for this session is that I have a lot of autistic kids in my classes (if my terminology offends you here, I apologize – I’ve looked all over online and people seem to literally be divided in two regarding “autistic person” and “person with autism”), and I’m actually kind of excited because I will freely admit that I’m terrible with this stuff (especially when parents and authority figures are around because then I’m constantly wondering if I’m doing something wrong?). I usually treat them like I would anyone else unless their parents specifically request something different, but this session will be huge for making it just another part of my day.
It’s also got me thinking about my job this summer, because they have “one on one” campers (campers with some sort of special needs, basically), and I’m pretty terrible at individual interactions at the best of times, and having to spend almost twenty-four hours a day with the same person for a week is like something out of a nightmare for me (ESPECIALLY if they talk a lot because I’m sorry I just can’t keep up a constant conversation).
And then from camp we go back to my prom and graduation. You see, the camp is about four hours away from where I live. Graduation and prom land directly in the middle of my training week. Which means I need to find a ride up to the camp to start the week, find another ride back home for both events, then a third ride back up to camp. It’s going to be a nightmare to organize. Honestly, if the graduation and prom could just be one week earlier, all of my problems would be solved... le sigh.
We’re starting to hit the hardcore study mode for the IB exams, which I believe are starting in the first week of May? We’ve been reviewing material since March for Biology, and now we’ve hit the end of the road for our IB Math as well. Just one more test and then we’ll be onto the practice exams. In English we’re to finish reading our final play and then reviewing begins, so I’ll probably be done learning new things by the end of next week. The exams are staggered throughout the first three weeks of May, and after that I’m technically done high school (although I still need to attend and participate in the bogus activities our teachers are forced to come up with, since the board dislikes us finishing a month early... stupid board). Woohoo.
And going back full circle to the YMCA, where I have to help two of our newest staff members with the planning and running of a class on Saturday mornings for the first three weeks to make sure they know what they’re doing. I’m not sure why I need to do that for three weeks, but today I barely arrived in time because I was so exhausted (yay continuing insomnia and growing caffeine (addiction/dependence/they’re the same thing so be quiet).
I don’t believe I did anything of terrible awesomeness this week, so unfortunately I’m gonna have to leave my point total where it is. Maybe I’ll do this again next week or maybe you’ll all wait for two weeks or maybe never again, because really how interesting can my life be?