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Attention Minecrafty Folk

Posted by Engineer Alexandra Humva , Dec 11 2013 · 123 views

I shall be running a FtB server soonish, using the Horizons modpack. All who are interested can PM me; keep in mind my capabilities are limited and, as such, there'll be a pretty low limit of five to seven players on at a time, but really I doubt it'll be popular enough to warrant much concern over that.


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Steam Autumn Sale End Report

Posted by Engineer Alexandra Humva , Dec 03 2013 · 138 views

  • Sleeping Dogs
  • Borderlands 2
  • Torchlight 2
  • Age of Empires II HD Edition, graciously donated by the epic Necro + The Forgotten Expansion, bought by yours truly
  • Dust: An Elysian Tail
  • Gnomoria
  • Command and Conquer: Red Alert 3
 
While I didn't get everything I was hoping for, it was still a $40 well spent, and due to some recent pawning of my brother's old possessions, I should have another $50 to spend when the Winter Sale arrives. Maybe then I'll go for the deals on CivV and Terran Conflict.


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Three cheers for the man of the hour

Posted by Engineer Alexandra Humva , Dec 02 2013 · 84 views

Here I was, wondering how I'll ever get the stuff I want when pamft, Necro buys me AoE II HD. He's a pretty epic dude y'all, though we all know AoE II is now going come on sale for like ninety percent off now, just to make him feel bad. =P
 
Edit: Ok so it's 75% off. xD My sympathies man.


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Bought Borderlands 2

Posted by Engineer Alexandra Humva , Nov 30 2013 · 67 views

Yay I actually bought something I said I was going get this sale. :U
 
Just need to make sure there's room in my wallet to pick up X3: Terran Conflict, though I may need to sacrifice getting Gnomoria if something like, say, Deus Ex: Human Revolution Director's Cut comes on sale. Or Age of Empires II HD edition.
 
Guuuh that point where I have to actually be wise about my spending ;=;


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The Steam Sale So Far

Posted by Engineer Alexandra Humva , Nov 29 2013 · 58 views

Picked up Sleeping Dogs and Red Alert 3, gifted Counter Strike: Global Offensive.
 
I really am not sticking to my priorities list very well.


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Steam Autumn Sale T-Minus 17 hours

Posted by Engineer Alexandra Humva , Nov 26 2013 · 166 views

My body is not ready, but my wallet is so it's all good.


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My wallet is twitching (also game recommendations)

Posted by Engineer Alexandra Humva , Nov 24 2013 · 204 views

The Steam Autumn and Winter Sales are just around the corner, and in terribly close proximity.
 
Not like I was going spend that Christmas money on anything else.
 
So due to this season of spending what little money I have on entertainment, I require your guy's opinions: I have a few games I'm looking out for, but knowing the amazing deals Steam will have, I'm bound to have money for more. So here's a list of the games I know I'm going be keeping an eye out, you guys recommend me some. The ground rules are simple: It can't cost more then $5 after a 50% discount (so ten dollars for you folks less math-inclined =P), it needs to be relatively lightweight (I'm running a $30 video card; a benchmark is I get around 25-30 FPS in Arkham City on low settings), and I'd prefer games that aren't shooters. The exception to this is if it's an exceptionally well done shooter, if it has a good story component, or somesuch.
 
Humva's Grand List of Games He Wants:
 
1. Civilization 5 and its expansions
2. Age of Empires II HD and its expansion

3. Bioshock
4. Dues Ex: Director's Cut

Man of simple tastes, as you can see. Which is why I need your guy's help. Keep in mind my Steam library is already somewhat, uh, large, so I'll be around to tell you if I already own said game. A rule of thumb is if it's a big indie hit like FTL or Bastion or Terraria, I prolly already have it. No harm in mentioning it alongside others though, just to make sure.
 
Humva's Grand List of Games People Told Him He Wants and He Thinks He Does Want
 
1. Borderlands 2
2. Fallout 3
3. Space Engineers
4. Kerbal Space Program
5. Castle Crashers
6. Dust: An Elysian Tail
7. Insanely Twisted Shadow Planet


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My internet paradox

Posted by Engineer Alexandra Humva , Nov 22 2013 · 163 views

If I lived in the city, I'd get better internet for cheaper. A lot better actually. If I lived in the country side, I'd even have the possibility of getting gigabit, due to the huge number of businesses here who build lines for businesses in rural places. However, due to living in the suburbs, I get stuck with ever-so-slightly mediocre internet. For what my dad's paying for our business line right now ($70/m) for 6Mbit/s, just an extra thirty bucks would get us gigabit a dozen miles west. Instead of that we've got AT&T, who doesn't offer anything above 20Mbit/s.
 
Still thankful for, you know, not using dial-up, but still. The year is 2013, I live next to one of the most technologically involved cities in America. I think AT&T can do better than that.


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Thoughts on adulthood

Posted by Engineer Alexandra Humva , Nov 17 2013 · 113 views

So here we are; it's November, soon to be December, and then 2014 will be here. Once upon a time a month seemed like a magically vast distance, each day feeling like an eternity. Now, they flash by me at a rate akin to going down the freeway and watching incoming traffic. Soon enough it'll be my birthday, and then I'll graduate highschool. Seems not all too long ago that I entered it as an asocial little shell of a person. So much has happened and yet it all it compacted into my head, not as weeks and months and years but defining events separated by the meagerness of living. I suppose that, twenty years from now, I won't remember much of this, only the few things that stick out. Everything else will be categorized in my brain as the past years have been categorized; events, with things that didn't mean much in the long run in the middle.
 
I'll be gone from that little island of not-tranquility that is my house in relatively short order, or maybe I won't. College living is expensive and while me and my best mate can joke about us moving in together now, when it actually comes down to it I'm not sure we could stand being roomies in his apartment. He has his own life to pursue and I have my own, I can't hang off of him forever. College itself will be daunting, with a work schedule I haven't properly experienced yet, but with it will come freedom I haven't properly known as well. With any luck, the scholarship competitions I have participated in will pay off and I'll get through college with minimal use of student loans. That'd be a dream, really.
 
From there I'll graduate with a bachelors of mechanical engineering, get a job, and hopefully start on my master's degree. Eventually I'll get it and secure a spot in the corporate world, going about my daily work as an engineer in an ever expanding technological world. Maybe I'll get married, maybe not. Maybe I'll have kids, maybe not. Somehow, I don't think I an anticipate either of those.
 
All of that is well and good, until I start thinking a bit more deeply on it. How many friends will I lose to college? How many of those I once knew will move, or simply stop talking with me? I could make new friends, and indeed, many see college as a chance to start all over. But starting over is something I've had plenty of. I've moved too many times now to care for it again. I've met good people here, people I'd hate to lose simply because of time. Yet, it will likely end up that way. There's not a whole lot you can do but try and save a few relationships.
 
And then there's my family. My ever supporting but ultimately flawed family. We intend to file for chapter seven bankruptcy after the first of the year; my family's debts have simply become too great to handle. Whether or not our problem with spending will go away is something uncertain. My father indulges in the expensive hobby of photography and my mother in the less expensive but quite bulky hobby of scrapbooking. She had at least a thousand dollars worth of paper in her room and more in other supplies and tools, exact estimates are hard to figure out. It's a serious problem and only time will tell how it'll go down.
 
This has, understandably, brought up some rifts in my parents' relationship, some pre-existing and others not. It's a strained time, and the possibility of divorce is a real one. I'm old enough that I could take the blunt of it and be fine; my sister, however, could not. She already suffers from some mental disabilities, and has a naive look on the world that stems from those, alongside the fact that saying she is sheltered is the understatement of the year. I can fend for myself in matters like this; she cannot, and as such, I have to try and do my best to keep her from just breaking under it all.
 
But some things I can't control, and this is one of them. I have no authority in this matter, and even after I become an adult in the eyes of the law, that won't change anything in my family life. I can only hope, then, that things get better. I know they won't, but hey, it can't hurt to at least hope.
 
So I'll go off to college, probably still living with my parents until the time comes that I have an internship of some sort to strike off on my own. I'll have less time and yet, paradoxically, more time to do the things I love. My best mate explained it to me this way; college is tough, and it definitely makes you think about what you do, and yet he can spend hours with his family, go down to Old Town and play his harmonica into the waning hours of the night, and visit with his girlfriend every day. The fact that they live together helps with the latter bit.
 
My schedule will change, and yet, I'll be able to do more things than I do now. I'll (hopefully) have a car that I can use to go places, something I'm utterly unable to do right now by virtue of living in the Kansas suburbs without so much as even a bike. I can visit people, places, spend time doing things that really matter. College will be long and hard but I'll be doing something I love, learning about things that can make a difference. Engineering is my passion and so, when I'm up at 2 AM in the morning trying to get that thesis done, I'll be able to remind myself why I'm doing it.
 
So I suppose that's what adulthood means to me. Nothing will magically change on my birthday, other than the ability to pay taxes and vote. College won't even change much. My family will still have problems, I'll still have to deal with problems. The difference will be that I can do my own thing, and love doing it. The difference is that while time will only continue to fly by, instead of filling my days with nothingness to be blotted out and replaced with something else when convenient, I'll be out making things happen. I don't know what things really, but I know I'll be doing something. I won't be sitting around the house ten hours a day wondering what I could try today. I'll be out there, maybe joining my best mate down at Old Town with my drums.
 
At any rate, it'll be an adventure. There's the curse that's suppose to be Chinese, for your life to be filled with excitement. A boring life may be the better one, but even worse is one that has the same problems day in and day out. Adulthood means change, college means change. I'd rather deal with the problems they bring than continue with the ones I've dealt with for years now.


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A bit of an explanation of me

Posted by Engineer Alexandra Humva , Aug 21 2013 · 1,683 views

I am and have been for as long as I can remember, a violent person. I don't know why; maybe it's the genetics, maybe its the hormones, maybe its just me. But when I see a situation, I want to charge headfirst in there and start breaking some bones. It's my impulse reaction to basically anything that doesn't go my way. But as I found out from a young age, it never really worked out. Thankfully I got that under control by the time I reached the age where I really could break people's bones. Nowadays you'll find that I'm a pretty chill guy, nothing much can really send me into an ungodly rage. There are a few things but they're fairly limited. Yet despite this I do still have to keep my peace, and fight back those urges. It's a part of my daily life, making sure that I settle issues with words, rather than my fist.
 
It's taught me quite a few things throughout life. While I used to view violence as a glorious thing now I can barely stand it. I might talk big about breaking bones but, well, the thought is fairly repugnant to me. Watching other people fight is what drove me away from most competitive sports. It extends further to text as well; often times when I get into verbal debates that become too fierce I become quickly depressed. My parents and friends can attest to the fact that if someone screams at me I will quite often break into tears. Trust me, it's really awkward when the six foot six broad guy starts bawling in the same room as you. It's something I've been working to overcome; can't very well become a politician if you can't take some snide remarks after all. So most of the time I wrap myself in an aura of apathy and uncaring, all in an effort not to actually let it strike me home.
 
So that's me. A boiling pot filled with suppressed anger issues, the inability to take a mean-spirited comment without falling into depression or aforementioned anger, and a shield of pacifistic apathy I have created to keep the two contained. Wonderful psycho-analysis, now what's my actual point in all of this? My actual point is that I've been watching the blogs and I've found myself becoming more and more pushed aside. I kept my opinions mostly to myself, made some touchy-feely entries about reason and logic. But, now here it is, my thoughts laid out on the table for the world to see. I feel like I'm being pushed away. I feel like those I share opinions with, like Jinkmeister and Xccj, who have both been so venomously attacked for touting love and peace. Let me quote some notable excerpts from Jinkmeister's blog. "I think people should stop judging other people for the way they live their lives," and "Love, respect, and dignify every single person, regardless of their gender, attractions, race, religion, beliefs..."

 
So I simply must ask myself, and presumably the reader, why is it that, a bisexual youth living in Kansas, a decidedly not gay-friendly place, am feeling excluded and pushed away, on one of the only sites I'm active on anymore, by those I had hoped would be a comfort on this site, simply because I feel that shouting at the other side accomplishes nothing? Xccj presented a well reasoned argument and he was told that he was doing it wrong. I don't even have a well reasoned argument, I have what I know to be true. And that is that I would never punch my real life friends for the views I know they hold. Because I've talked to them about it. Some never changed. Some have. Some now are completely ok. Not because I yelled at them. Not because they yelled at me. Not because I told them that they were awful people. 
 
But because I showed them that I, at the end of it all, was just their friend and just some random guy going through the world. Because I showed them love when they did not. And, in the end, most of them did the same to me. The rest, well, the rest don't talk to me anymore and if they do, my fist is ever ready.






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WARNING:
 
The following blog contains excessive rambling on the world and extremely poor paragraphing. If you are easily offended or turned off by these two things, leaving now would be a good idea.
 
This blog is written by Alex Humva, penname of some random teenager named Alex Censored. He writes stories, writes rants, writes screenplays, plays games, makes games, has a terrible work ethic, and is generally sarcastic. He believes in a Judao-Christian god, but most other people who do too give him a glare because of his weird beliefs, possibly because he's somehow bi at the same time. He's an utter equalist who feels that any discrimination amongst humans for things they were born with is wrong. He doesn't care about xenos though, let them all burn.
 
He's also an aspiring engineer who hopes to get a scholarship at his local big engineering college and one day help humanity. More likely he'll be a pencil pusher in a basement somewhere, but he's a bloody minded optimist.
 
Because of his peculiar personality and beliefs, he gets into fights often, though they usually end when he wakes up the next morning and doesn't feel motivated anymore.

Current status of the OTC RPG community

Format: RPG Name - Discussion topic - Current status - Am I part of it?
 
To Save The World!

Invalid - Active - No

Mass Effect: Division

Discussion - Active - No

Pokemon: Rise of the Rockets

Invalid - Active - No

X-Men: Darkest Days

Discussion - Active - Yes

Starscape

Discussion - Active - Yes

Halo: Forerunners

Discussion - Active - No

Okami

Discussion - Active - No

Spirits and Men

Discussion - Active - Yes

The Proelium

Discussion - Active - No

Digimon: Generations

Discussion - Active - No

Transformers: EC

Discussion - Active - No

 

Fallout: Austin City Limits

Discussion - Active - No

LAST UPDATE: May 6th, 2013.

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