I should have known when I woke up, and I was so happy that I’d have to hit a low… :<
I watched Aidan all while my mom was getting ready to leave then when I tried to get ready she rushed to the car. Later her remark was “I thought you were dressed.”
I was dressed but didn’t she see my hair was standing all up? I was just trying to fix it and I would have been ready but I wasn’t able to. Aidan grabbed a cup off the dresser and drank out of it and in the process dumped it all over his clean clothes, jacket, and shoes. So I had to get him changed and everything because my mom was in the car already. I ended up just throwing a hat on.
It didn’t even make sense why we were going in my grandma’s so late when we were going to go to my aunt’s in a few hours. My mom was just in one of those moods I guess.
Well we got there and my grandma had my pap’s kids from his first marriage in, his daughter from down state and her younger friend and his son from Texas with his two kids. They were cooking and stuff when we got their and that’s about it. We left when my dad got there to take the kids to their house so we wouldn’t have to wait for their mom to pick them up.
Of course we’re just sitting there and they start talking about how everyone was acting at my grandmas.
“Putting on a show.”
“Complain they never have money.”
“Making a big ordeal about them being there.”
“Any other time their dying.”
And a lot of other things that got on my nerves and upset me that I can’t remember. I ended up looking at my dad and said “Why don’t you just shut up.” Well by then I couldn’t take it so I had to sit Aidan on the floor and walk down stairs because I started crying.
Then my mom said “don’t cry” and started following me and I said “leave me alone.”
She just kept following me and sat with me and told me to stop crying I don’t understand why everyone is so negative, negative, negative.
What I had meant to say upstairs was “Why don’t you both just shut up?” She said things to, it just wasn’t my dad.
Then she was like call and “tell Belinda- my dad’s sister- we aren’t coming.” I was like we can go. I wanted to go but noooooo. “I’m not taking him over there like this.” God, all I did was get upset and cry… Since when is that a crime?
I think the best thing ever was that when he called he most certainly lied about why we were not coming all of a sudden. Surely he wouldn’t have said I wasn’t feeling good. Because I feel fine, I was just upset.
We ended up coming home and I went in my room and shut the door. Well my mom came in of course.
“I want to tell you one thing and I’ll leave you alone. One day you and your dad are going to have to sit down and tell each other what you don’t like or can’t stand about each other because as the mom I can’t take it anymore.”
Now didn’t I just say it wasn’t just him? What got to me was what he was saying and just going on and on about my grandma. Then she left and I turned my light off and took my glasses of to lay down because by now I didn’t feel like doing anything.
A few minutes later she comes back. “What are you doing?” “Sleeping…” “Why?” “I’m tired.” “Okay.”
Then she left.
She came back again…
“You know how much I love you..” You know all that stuff.
Then I overheard her telling my sister what happened in her room. Obviously when things get repeated they are never the same. According to what my mom said all she said was “I didn’t feel comfortable up there.” All the people there are family. How can you not feel comfortable? Because my step aunt brought her friend she’s brought up I don’t know how many times before?
Finally I got to go to sleep and take like an hour nap then my sister opened my door to ask me if I wanted to eat. So I got up and ate and now I’m writing this.
I just don’t see how it’s right to run your mouth about people when they’re not around. If you can’t say something like that in front of them you shouldn’t be saying it at all. I guess that’s how everyone is though.
But before I shut up there is one more thing I’d like to point out.
Had we went to my aunts, with or without me getting upset, they would have acted like totally different people when they got there than the two people sitting in that living room.
I guess that’s just life but I can’t stand it when they do that and it just finally got to me.
Tomorrow’s the anniversary dinner my aunt always had with her family but since she died last year we go with my cousins and uncle now. We will have to wait and see how that goes…
I mean so what if my grandma does act different when they are around. At least she is getting up and doing something and having fun.
Anyways it’s time for my med and to post this.
Yeah my mom just went to bed at 7… Asked if we wanted to go to the dinner tomorrow. I nodded my head and she said “huh?” I said yeah and she just groaned because of the way I answered.