still trying to rearrange my life after last year, and while some things are getting better it still feels like I'm struggling most of the time. At this point I'm seriously wondering whether I had a burnout of some sorts or why else it is all so much for me.
Art-wise it's going okay, though. That's at least something.
... okay I did not know that links are embedded these days. That's fancy. Anyway, posted some artworks in GA, if anyone is interested in that but, like me, does not check the artwork forum every other day ^^'
.... idk how to properly summarize it, tbh. Made a larger decision that changed my life for the better, but it still took until Christmas for me to even halfway recover from what happened before. I just hope things won't excalate as much again, or rather, that next time I'll find the courage to quit a bad situation earlier on and not stay until it is almost way too much to bear.
But there are positive things! I joined a Pathfinder campaign, and through that formed some really great friendsh
... okay, to be fair, apart from "elves are just very cool and I love pointy ears"
Thing is, there is something about them beiong much older than they look that is just relatable in a way. Idk. I too, often, feel older than I probably should at this point (or maybe the times are jusut moving far too fast for me to keep up these days, idk), yet people tend to estimate my age to be younger than it is. (the only time when that wasn't the case was when I was stressed out of my mind. Even got a
Figured I might as well post it here also. It's been a while since I've last drawn something even remotely Bionicle-related, so it's been a fun change. (also, including actual clothing instead of just random clothing-like elements? that's almost a first. Almost. I did do it back in 2009, but that's sooooo long ago...)
Ah yes, and in case you're wondering what EOD is, check this out. (spoiler: it's a game)
Life is still hard from time to time. And weirdly enough, studying never gets easier, even though I've been through all of it already. It's odd. :/
But at least programming is kinda fun, so I am not regretting this decision ^^
Was inspired by Akaku: Master of Flight (how everyone does this fancy tagging, I have no idea :/ ) to make a timeline of my character over the years. So I did that.
[regular link, until I figure out how to link thumbnails ^^]
I couldn't find anything for 2011, so either I really didn't draw her in that year or I lost the scanned files. Don't feel like digging through my myriad or sketchbooks though, so I'll leave it blank for now. I know that especially around 2008-2009 the
Ah idk I don't want to always just post every single redesign of my char to GA, that feels kinda spammy. So I'll just leave the sketch here.
Actually I was out for some urban sketching yesterday, but after finding out that BZPower is back up - let's say I was inspired, and that happens so rarely these days that I let myself get distracted
About the sketch itself, it was as always done in ballpoint pen, because I actually like that better than the regular pencil these days. ^^' Doesn't sm
Huh, that's good to know! (actually, I am delighted, but trying to play it cool. Working? I doubt it.)
What have I been up to in the meantime? Mostly on holidays, and preparing for the new semster, as I decided to go back to uni - this time studying informatics. After all, I did pass the entrance exam, and may actually be able to skip some basic math lectures. That would be great.
Oh yes, and I am playing Pathfinder with a group of friends now, dunno if I already mentioned it before.
Dunno about you people, but I really miss the heydays of BZPower (or rather, the way it was around 2008 when I joined, which as far as I've heard wasn't even the 'real' heyday??), when this place was just buzzing with activity... Nostalgia is strong today. :/
I realized I am skilled at many things, but none are needed in the current job market (I am not a programmer. I should be a programmer. People only seem to want programmers these days). Furthermore, at the same time I am overqualified for regular small jobs. This is not fun. :< So yeah the plan is now to study informatics (and learn programming :> ) and at the same time find something to financially support myself enough to get by somehow.
Writing that past entry brought some things into perspective for me, and after some thinking... I'm quitting that doctorate for good. Wasn't worth it, I never had any useful results and mostly just suffered? So, now the next scary thing will be finding a job. And when I say scary, I mean scary. At least I will still be working in my previous job until end of may or so.
Yo all! It's been a while, and tbh I should have probably logged into this account much sooner than I did... anyway, just wanted to let you know I haven't given up on this place! Point is, this doctorate thing is scaring me more than it should, and I have spent the last 2 months spiralling from one crisis into the next, hence my silence. I'm still alive, tho. (just been banished into the shadow realm, so to speak. :] ) ... man I missed this place. Is anyone still around? So what's new... I
November was insanely stressful, with tons of work, also related to going abroad for the last few days to join a workshop on... science-y stuff. So that's why I wasn't around that much. ^^' and now it's almost Christmas. Where did the time go?
It's certainly been a while. I'm okay with that, tho. :> though my 13-year-old self would think I am old now. Come to think of it, when I joined was when I still mostly wore bright colourful stuff instead of these days' mostly black attire xD Already had the glasses and the long hair, however. Art-wise I do hope I've improved over the past years. Why bringing this up? Because it was due to the splendid stuff im GA that convinced me to draw regularly. Yay. So I'm kinda glad this place i
if anyone wants a review of their stuff, please let me know! It's been ages since I last wrote something like that, plus I don't know if people even want art reviews these days or if an "awesome!" is all that is desired. -- but seriously, it's a bit awkward to just type up a longer thing. Why didn't it feel like handing out unsolicited advice so much when I was a kid/teen? o.o On the other hand, nothing's more sad than posting art and having nobody react to it because nobody even knows it i
am done with Yugioh GX (the dub, anyway), and started watching 5Ds. No real opinion on that yet. But I was surprised by how much I enjoyed GX overall? Looking back, especially the first season. Now if anyone wants to guess my favourite GX character, that might be fun :>
Normally there are seasonally recurring themes in my art. One of them is that in summer, more fairies turn up. Not this summer. Coincidentally it's also the first time I didn't have a large summer break. I guess these are connected somehow, because Fall's Vampires showed up pretty much on time. ^^' Art-wise, things are looking up. Coloured pencils can be used again! Plus ove rthe past two months I improved my 'posture' while drawing, i.e., the way I hold the pencil, and it's all less cramped.
Tried a small thing with coloured pencils, and it'S starting to work for me again, if I hold the pencil differently than what I am used to apply less pressure per layer go super slow and take breaks aka I need to be extremely cautious, so it's not back to everyday medium again - but it's improving and I am happy about it.
eh idk stuff is going slow at the moment, and I really miss my summer holidays. Starting work in June sucks. ;D On a more serious note, thought I'd update you on the Gouache. I am still struggling. So. Hard. But here's a sunflower I painted (click here for slightly larger version): though admittedly, without references or anything. Just what I think a sunflower might look like. ^^' because I was so out of ideas... idk. I still have a hard time achieving the effects I want, because obvi