I do wonder if anyone still reads this, tbh ^^'
But for anyone who does, life is slowly returning back to normal, and I think that's a really good thing. Also, I'm about to finally finish my current sketchbook after 4 months, which is surprisingly fast for me - normally it takes at least half a year.
Idk if anyone even still knows this existed, but I updated my art collection - after all, I've been drawing more Bionicle stuff again lately, so I need a place to put it all without cluttering GA.
But yeah, expect some more updates from me over the course of the next few weeks. ^^
It's been a while, hasn't it... so what's new?
Days are still more or less the same. That will change next week because I am back to the office.
Home learning is not my thing, which is amazing because uni stays digital until the end of the semester. <3
Art-wise I've hit a plateau, which is annoying. Should probably do some focused practise to start improving again.
That's it from me, how's it going for all of you?
still trying to rearrange my life after last year, and while some things are getting better it still feels like I'm struggling most of the time. At this point I'm seriously wondering whether I had a burnout of some sorts or why else it is all so much for me.
Art-wise it's going okay, though. That's at least something.
... okay I did not know that links are embedded these days. That's fancy. Anyway, posted some artworks in GA, if anyone is interested in that but, like me, does not check the artwork forum every other day ^^'
.... idk how to properly summarize it, tbh. Made a larger decision that changed my life for the better, but it still took until Christmas for me to even halfway recover from what happened before. I just hope things won't excalate as much again, or rather, that next time I'll find the courage to quit a bad situation earlier on and not stay until it is almost way too much to bear.
But there are positive things! I joined a Pathfinder campaign, and through that formed some really great friendsh
... okay, to be fair, apart from "elves are just very cool and I love pointy ears"
Thing is, there is something about them beiong much older than they look that is just relatable in a way. Idk. I too, often, feel older than I probably should at this point (or maybe the times are jusut moving far too fast for me to keep up these days, idk), yet people tend to estimate my age to be younger than it is. (the only time when that wasn't the case was when I was stressed out of my mind. Even got a
Figured I might as well post it here also. It's been a while since I've last drawn something even remotely Bionicle-related, so it's been a fun change. (also, including actual clothing instead of just random clothing-like elements? that's almost a first. Almost. I did do it back in 2009, but that's sooooo long ago...)
Ah yes, and in case you're wondering what EOD is, check this out. (spoiler: it's a game)
Life is still hard from time to time. And weirdly enough, studying never gets easier, even though I've been through all of it already. It's odd. :/
But at least programming is kinda fun, so I am not regretting this decision ^^
Was inspired by Akaku: Master of Flight (how everyone does this fancy tagging, I have no idea :/ ) to make a timeline of my character over the years. So I did that.
[regular link, until I figure out how to link thumbnails ^^]
I couldn't find anything for 2011, so either I really didn't draw her in that year or I lost the scanned files. Don't feel like digging through my myriad or sketchbooks though, so I'll leave it blank for now. I know that especially around 2008-2009 the
Ah idk I don't want to always just post every single redesign of my char to GA, that feels kinda spammy. So I'll just leave the sketch here.
Actually I was out for some urban sketching yesterday, but after finding out that BZPower is back up - let's say I was inspired, and that happens so rarely these days that I let myself get distracted
About the sketch itself, it was as always done in ballpoint pen, because I actually like that better than the regular pencil these days. ^^' Doesn't sm
Huh, that's good to know! (actually, I am delighted, but trying to play it cool. Working? I doubt it.)
What have I been up to in the meantime? Mostly on holidays, and preparing for the new semster, as I decided to go back to uni - this time studying informatics. After all, I did pass the entrance exam, and may actually be able to skip some basic math lectures. That would be great.
Oh yes, and I am playing Pathfinder with a group of friends now, dunno if I already mentioned it before.
Dunno about you people, but I really miss the heydays of BZPower (or rather, the way it was around 2008 when I joined, which as far as I've heard wasn't even the 'real' heyday??), when this place was just buzzing with activity... Nostalgia is strong today. :/
I realized I am skilled at many things, but none are needed in the current job market (I am not a programmer. I should be a programmer. People only seem to want programmers these days). Furthermore, at the same time I am overqualified for regular small jobs. This is not fun. :< So yeah the plan is now to study informatics (and learn programming :> ) and at the same time find something to financially support myself enough to get by somehow.
Writing that past entry brought some things into perspective for me, and after some thinking... I'm quitting that doctorate for good. Wasn't worth it, I never had any useful results and mostly just suffered? So, now the next scary thing will be finding a job. And when I say scary, I mean scary. At least I will still be working in my previous job until end of may or so.
Yo all! It's been a while, and tbh I should have probably logged into this account much sooner than I did... anyway, just wanted to let you know I haven't given up on this place! Point is, this doctorate thing is scaring me more than it should, and I have spent the last 2 months spiralling from one crisis into the next, hence my silence. I'm still alive, tho. (just been banished into the shadow realm, so to speak. :] ) ... man I missed this place. Is anyone still around? So what's new... I