Life is still hard from time to time. And weirdly enough, studying never gets easier, even though I've been through all of it already. It's odd. :/
But at least programming is kinda fun, so I am not regretting this decision ^^
Ah idk I don't want to always just post every single redesign of my char to GA, that feels kinda spammy. So I'll just leave the sketch here.
Actually I was out for some urban sketching yesterday, but after finding out that BZPower is back up - let's say I was inspired, and that happens so rarely these days that I let myself get distracted
About the sketch itself, it was as always done in ballpoint pen, because I actually like that better than the regular pencil these days. ^^' Doesn't sm
Was inspired by Akaku: Master of Flight (how everyone does this fancy tagging, I have no idea :/ ) to make a timeline of my character over the years. So I did that.
[regular link, until I figure out how to link thumbnails ^^]
(~800kB)
I couldn't find anything for 2011, so either I really didn't draw her in that year or I lost the scanned files. Don't feel like digging through my myriad or sketchbooks though, so I'll leave it blank for now. I know that especially around 2008-2009 the
Huh, that's good to know! (actually, I am delighted, but trying to play it cool. Working? I doubt it.)
What have I been up to in the meantime? Mostly on holidays, and preparing for the new semster, as I decided to go back to uni - this time studying informatics. After all, I did pass the entrance exam, and may actually be able to skip some basic math lectures. That would be great.
Oh yes, and I am playing Pathfinder with a group of friends now, dunno if I already mentioned it before.
Dunno about you people, but I really miss the heydays of BZPower (or rather, the way it was around 2008 when I joined, which as far as I've heard wasn't even the 'real' heyday??), when this place was just buzzing with activity... Nostalgia is strong today. :/
I realized I am skilled at many things, but none are needed in the current job market (I am not a programmer. I should be a programmer. People only seem to want programmers these days). Furthermore, at the same time I am overqualified for regular small jobs. This is not fun. :< So yeah the plan is now to study informatics (and learn programming :> ) and at the same time find something to financially support myself enough to get by somehow.
Writing that past entry brought some things into perspective for me, and after some thinking... I'm quitting that doctorate for good. Wasn't worth it, I never had any useful results and mostly just suffered? So, now the next scary thing will be finding a job. And when I say scary, I mean scary. At least I will still be working in my previous job until end of may or so.
Yo all! It's been a while, and tbh I should have probably logged into this account much sooner than I did... anyway, just wanted to let you know I haven't given up on this place! Point is, this doctorate thing is scaring me more than it should, and I have spent the last 2 months spiralling from one crisis into the next, hence my silence. I'm still alive, tho. (just been banished into the shadow realm, so to speak. :] ) ... man I missed this place. Is anyone still around? So what's new... I
It's certainly been a while. I'm okay with that, tho. :> though my 13-year-old self would think I am old now. Come to think of it, when I joined was when I still mostly wore bright colourful stuff instead of these days' mostly black attire xD Already had the glasses and the long hair, however. Art-wise I do hope I've improved over the past years. Why bringing this up? Because it was due to the splendid stuff im GA that convinced me to draw regularly. Yay. So I'm kinda glad this place i
Tried a small thing with coloured pencils, and it'S starting to work for me again, if I hold the pencil differently than what I am used to apply less pressure per layer go super slow and take breaks aka I need to be extremely cautious, so it's not back to everyday medium again - but it's improving and I am happy about it.
eh idk stuff is going slow at the moment, and I really miss my summer holidays. Starting work in June sucks. ;D On a more serious note, thought I'd update you on the Gouache. I am still struggling. So. Hard. But here's a sunflower I painted (click here for slightly larger version): though admittedly, without references or anything. Just what I think a sunflower might look like. ^^' because I was so out of ideas... idk. I still have a hard time achieving the effects I want, because obvi
... because my finger is still not alright again, and using coloured pencil just seems to straun that one joint so much it actually hurts. Regular drawing doesn't, though, and neither does painting. So I guess I'm doing that for now? Started working with gouache and watercolour, and that's so much different to my usual approach that it is rather intimidating. but hey, I still fill a sketchbook page per day, so that's a plus.
would anyone be interested in a sketchbook tour (or 30? I have so many of those...)? Because I am sort of contemplating starting a youtube channel or something later this year (once I am finally settled into my PhD studies - things are looking good!)...
Draw. Every. Day. Even if it's just random doodles, and no studies or super-finished pieces. And this thing with not having any ideas? It gets better after the first few pages. You eventually get accustomed to producing some form of output every day, even when you're not inspired. ^^
well I did my two presentations and the interview. Now all I can do is wait for the decision. but tbh I am just so much more relaxed now, because I really did everything I could and the whole thing is no longer in my hands.
See, 2018 is a weird year because a lot of things that matter a lot to me are officially about 10 years old now. What they are? I am preparing something for a proper celebration, so you'll find out later (way to build a hype, huh? xD) Anyway, I've been around this site for such a long time, 10+ years now. I remember this place in its heyday, when I would just talk to -so- many people (being a really communicative 13-year old with way too much free time...). I would start writing an Epic, which
Felt like I should explain my semi-absence once again... it boils down to two, maybe three factors, so I'll jump right into it: 1) the most important part is my aaaaaaah-pplication for a PhD position! Dunno if they'll choose me, but we'll see. I'll probably apply for another position or two, depends on when I get my nerves back. Seriously, those past two weeks were... not so fun. In the sense of stress, anxiety and fear of the future almost blocking me and causing some serious, serious headach
