... that I had a phase in high school where I really wanted to move more into a cyber goth-ish direction with my style. I mean, a part of me still wants to do so, because I find it aesthetically pleasing. Verily so, from the hairpieces to the frequent use of neon colours to contrast the tons of black. And the skirts. (the men's skirts, though. floor-length with tons of buckles. :3 ) And platform boots. Good stuff. Might look into those things again when my weight has stabilized, we'll see. A
I recently decided to give Morrowind another go - and it's been a fun journey so far. The side quests have been fairly ridiculous up until this point, I'm slowly getting the hang of the skill system (although I do keep dying at every other corner - overestimating myself much? Probably.), but well, I've only reached level 4 by now - after all, it's not like I had that much time at my disposal. Currently playing as a Wood Elf Rogue, works okay for me. ^^ I just wonder how long this game is goin
So yesterday in the aerosol lab (yes I take a lab course every semester. they're fun!) I happened to sit right there in/under a draft - as a result of that, my upper shoulder area and back of the neck are all tense and painful. Thus, most head movements result in silly head twitching. (one of the reasons why I strongly dislike air conditioning) I just hope it's not that obvious, otherise I must've made a reeeaally bad impression when travelling to and from university, me with my skeleton hand
I am no longer one of the hip, active, younger members of the site. That's a pity. I feel old. :< (in other words: I suddenly miss being 13. That was ~9 years ago. 9! years!! how? D: )
but who would have guessed that intense fear of failure would impede my abilities to solve physics problems, thus leading to nothing but an increase in fear?
*starts Baldur's Gate: Dark Alliance 2* "right, now I need to choose my class, and I had better do so wisely by seeking out a character that perfectly fits my playing style in order to get the most of this game" *sees elven necromancer* "okay nvm I know who to play as <3" - in the end he did turn out to be a good class for me to play as, though - at least in the two-player run with my sis, who chose the barbarian (and is a lot better at this game than me, IMO. :<).^^ We'll see how well
I guess the drawing says everything that there is to say. I am once again covered in work all the way up to my nose, it's annoying, but I guess it could have been avoided with better time management... still, blargh. At least I've sorta recovered art-wise, again. That's good. Though, paradoxically I think that the above sketch actually does look nice ("sketch" because freehand/I couldn't be bothered to do the whole guideline-approach. ^^) Ah well, tomorrow's still another day...
I always forget that, despite my love for fantasy and wizardry and stuff, I'm really not that skillful when it comes to drawing hoods and robes. And somehow recently the hands always decide to turn out to be either too large or too small. ("That's foreshortening, it's supposed to be like that!" - a younger self, possibly) But! Considering that it's the first drawing in days (due to all the bureaucracy connected with completing one's studies), it's actually quite nice, I guess. Media: ink pen
aka simulations are fun! And surprisingly, Blender runs fairly well on my old netbook. Which is great, because that means I can actually do stuff when at university, too. Rendering takes forever, though. 140 frames in ~10 minutes is not a particularly awesome rate (4 seconds per frame), but then again, I've got some stuff to do, anyway. So it's a fun pastime. ^^
So, I finally got my bachelor's degree in physics! And it feels... underwhelming, really. I mean, on the one hand I am intensely proud, and glad that it's over, but on the other hand, it's nowhere nearly as spectacular as I thought it would feel - possibly because I just immediately continue with the master studies, but still... I learned so much and know so little. xD The past three and a half years were a great exercise in character-building, though. I have certainly 'grown up' in a way. Whi
scaaaaaaaaaared. so very scared. After all, I am not only taking this particular exam for the second time (after having failed it spectacularly last time, then attending the lecture for a second time) - PLUS this is technically the last exam I have to take before finally finishing. So. Scared. 'though I have a -slightly- better feeling this time... ah well, we'll see.
Today is one of those days when I really want to dress in as much black stuff, skulls and spikes as I can find and paint my face all intricate and dark. It is, however, also one of those days where I have to take an oral exam! And I always tend to tone things down for these occasions. Ah well. At least the subject is an amazingly interesting one, as it was a lecture on complex systems. You know, networks and evolution and all that stuff. Edit: the exam went surprisingly well, though. So over
So this day started with a 3-hour power outage. (okay, maybe "started" is not completely right because it happened right after breakfast. At least I still got my coffee first, would have been unbearable otherwise ^^) Which was actually quite funny because eventually my sister, mother and I all ended up in the living room, crocheting. But also teaches you something about how much we are actually dependent on electricity and also technology these days... and that I'm just really glad we have a g
Just a bunch of small pictures I sketched up (more or less) recently - hopefully 2016 will finally be the year where I do more concept art-y stuff, because I think it's amazing and I don't want to be the person that can draw only pretty faces. D: That one's actually pretty nice if you ignore that I messed up the temple-thingie in the background - after all, it looks more like some odd giant tortoise now. Which is okay too, but not what I had originally been going for xD I'm also stil
so far the "be more active on BZPower" part of my not-really-resolutions has been going well... not. :/ I could of course offer some excuses about life and stress and all the usual, but you must've heard that a thousand times from me by now. Thus, I'd rather focus on what's new, and general life updates. As for one thing, my change in eating habits works out just the way I wanted; dropped one clothing size, so there's only one more to go for my stuff to fit me again, leading to a sudden increa
I refuse to call it resolutions, because these always sound like hollow promises to me. So this year I shall attempt the novel approach of formulating things in a 'quest log' of sorts: Keep up the more-or-less daily drawing regime. Finish the sketchbook that was started on the 4th of january. Worry less, crochet more. Participate more on BZPower, including blog entries. Less complaining about being weak and more sports instead. And these are just the most important parts. In retrospect,
I know I disappeared off the face of the internet...again. And I am sorry, and will be fully back soon. But you know how Christmas is: lots of preparation, time with family... and of course, receiving a new RPG as gift does not really help, either. Thus I spent a lot of time of the previous days on Risen 2 - Dark Waters, and I am totally enamoured. The setting is novel to me, pirates and all, but it's been a great run so far. :>
Of course it all went differently than expected: at the beginning of the course, the professor came in and asked for 'the three guys of the friday group to come to his office' (not sure if 'guys' is the proper translation in this context, though. maybe "gentlemen" would be better, although that doesn't sound right either. Anyway.) where they would discuss things. I honestly have no idea what he said to them, but then they came back into the room, and the course proceeded as usual, at least the
See, for the past weeks I've had my fair share of trouble with the group in this semester's lab course (mainly being dealt/assigned far too much work for the protocols by "colleagues", as well as not getting along with one of the other students who is not at all ready to shift parts or come to a compromise in any way; or to put it short, runs me over with a rhethoric lawnmover whenever I attempt to communicate that there are problems.). Today I finally managed to talk to the professor about it,
So here's a typical thing I make instead of hanging around online for hours. This particular little guy was a gift for my sister, to accompany her to university and stuff (after all, I found out these things make perfect stress balls, and allow for perfectly silent fidgeting during lectures etc.)
I have sort of a problem with modern video games, especially those from the last... idk, 2 years. The graphics. In many cases, the modelling, texturing etc on human characters have improved to a point where on a still image, it would be hard to tell them from reality. But the movement is usually still not that realistic. (still, it's not as bad as the 'Polar Express' was back when.) Admittedly, I haven't played any games newer than from 2011, but I watched some playthroughs, and looked at prev
Recently, upon scrolling some blogs around the web I realized just how tired I am of it all - I always see the same five gifs, just with different actors and colours. I always read about the same drama, or not drama, or amazing revelations, or problems that do not even concern me yet make me quite sad to think about. Every day. Several hours. Even though I already cut most of the really unneccessary things. But that's the sort of time where I'm already far too tired to do anything useful like
