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‘Ennui’ is French for ‘boredom’ but the latter word doesn’t quite express the concept in the same way. Most people consider boredom to be a transient mood; a particular emotion one might feel during, say, a dull afternoon. Ennui is more often used to refer to a more wide-ranging sense of apathy and disinterest that a person may be afflicted by for lasts for days, months or years. Whilst people might feel bored at a certain time or during a certain activity, ennui is more like perpetual boredom.
The depressive mood I mentioned being in before I left diluted itself into ennui, which I have been experiencing for the past few weeks. I don’t want to say ‘suffering’ because it is, in a way, quite useful. For me at least it encouraged me to dwell on my life and think about important things - what am I doing with my life? What do I want to do with it? What does it matter? And so on. The ennui is gone, but I haven’t quite managed to answer all of the questions yet. Those thoughts I’ll detail in a later entry. So suffice to say I’m happy again and back on BZP!
The depressive mood I mentioned being in before I left diluted itself into ennui, which I have been experiencing for the past few weeks. I don’t want to say ‘suffering’ because it is, in a way, quite useful. For me at least it encouraged me to dwell on my life and think about important things - what am I doing with my life? What do I want to do with it? What does it matter? And so on. The ennui is gone, but I haven’t quite managed to answer all of the questions yet. Those thoughts I’ll detail in a later entry. So suffice to say I’m happy again and back on BZP!
