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I think that if I had to use a single word to describe my state of mind, I'd choose Doubt. I second-guess everything I do. Take this blog for instance. I start to write a blog entry, then stop. I think "no-one cares, stop thinking you're worth listening to". A little later I start again. I think "you won't get any replies so what's the point?" I press through, I post it. I read and re-read what I've written. I think "should I have phrased that point that way? People might misinterpret that. Should I edit it? What if I edit it and someone reads and replies before I've finished editing?" I wait; no-one replies. I think "see, told you you're not worth listening to".
This kind of thought process occurs for most actions or decisions I take. It's why despite mentioning my desire to start a webcomic three months ago I still haven't gotten around to it: I don't have confidence in the ideas I have; I doubt anyone will put up with my mediocre art despite knowing that the only way for my art to stop being mediocre is for me to draw something regularly - IE, a webcomic.
This kind of insecurity and lack of self-confidence is why I don't try to make many funny blog entries because I doubt my own humour. It's why I don't like to voice my own opinions. It's why I didn't kiss the girl that time - although that's a (hilarious for you, embarrassing for me) story for another blog entry.
But don't worry; miserable as I may sound I'm not wallowing in depression here. As a matter of fact I'm excited that Pokémon Black and White 2 is released soon!
I doubt I'll be any good at it though.
This kind of thought process occurs for most actions or decisions I take. It's why despite mentioning my desire to start a webcomic three months ago I still haven't gotten around to it: I don't have confidence in the ideas I have; I doubt anyone will put up with my mediocre art despite knowing that the only way for my art to stop being mediocre is for me to draw something regularly - IE, a webcomic.
This kind of insecurity and lack of self-confidence is why I don't try to make many funny blog entries because I doubt my own humour. It's why I don't like to voice my own opinions. It's why I didn't kiss the girl that time - although that's a (hilarious for you, embarrassing for me) story for another blog entry.
But don't worry; miserable as I may sound I'm not wallowing in depression here. As a matter of fact I'm excited that Pokémon Black and White 2 is released soon!
I doubt I'll be any good at it though.
Not to deflate your insecurity even more, but I doubt you would be able to recognize a quiet, unassuming, afraid-someone-is-going-to-pass-him-on-the-street-because-he's-afraid-if-he-says-anything-it'll-seem-stupid-and-embarrassing American kid as the highly opinionated, overly ambitious and somewhat cocky BZP member Rumpelstiltskin.
My advice is this: plow on. If you don't do anything, no one will be able to like it. It's what you think that matters, not what other people think. And if you allow that reasoning to govern what you do, people will be more attracted to your work than if you stifled it trying to impress others. If you want to do a webcomic, do a webcomic and love it. It'll be better than if you put extra time and effort into it trying to mold it to standards that you think other people will have.
~ Rumpelstiltskin