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Speech Increased To 17

Posted by The Inquisitive Automaton , Apr 11 2012 · 47 views

So it's been one of those days, today. Not a bad one, by all means. In fact a good one. Working, but in a fairly relaxed manner, as I maintained contact with you fine BZPower residents.

But the reason why it's interesting is because it's been one of those days where I've actually felt confident in myself. They turn up every now and again and I'm always sad when they go. Y'see, I'm not a confident person, in real life, at all. It's one of the reasons why I haven't really made any new friends at college since September, because I'm usually too terrified to interact with others. Don't ask why, I'm just nervous about making a bad impression. It's one of the reasons why on this site, if you want a conversation with me, you'll have to be the one to start it, because I'm practically incapable of starting off without a lot of confidence boosting on my side. But occasionally, I'll get days like I get today when I'm in fact quite chatty and very sociable. I mean, I still laugh nervously to fill silences and stutter a lot, but at least I'm not mumbling or looking away from the other conversation participant. I kind of wish these phases'd stay but they always seem to be temporary.

Anyway, that was me rambling. Apologies for that, now skedaddle and read something interesting.

Indigo Individual

Apr 11 2012 12:51 PM

Read something interesting?
Read something interesting?!

Cool story, bro.

Burnmad: Toa of Emoticons

Apr 11 2012 12:56 PM

Your speech is only 17? Newb.

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Edit: Tongue emo added because I sounded serious otherwise.

The Inquisitive Automaton

Apr 11 2012 01:10 PM

To be able to finally talk like someone my own age, that's an achievement in my books.

Gatanui

Apr 11 2012 01:25 PM

I get you, although I´ve never really had trouble interacting on BZPower. I used to be like you, too, always afraid of saying something wrong or causing a bad impression, looking away, mumbling and all that with anybody but my close friends. I think I´ve overcome that, though. I´ve had a shock therapy, so to say, but that´s a different story.

-Gata

Taka Nuvia

Apr 11 2012 01:58 PM

Aw, I know how you feel. Among strangers I'm usually very shy, too... but once I get to know people, I turn into a waterfall. xD
On BZPower it's much better, though. for some weird reason...

and hey, ramblings can be very interesting, too!

Legolover-361

Apr 11 2012 02:08 PM

This defines me quite well:

[...]I'm usually too terrified to interact with others. Don't ask why, I'm just nervous about making a bad impression.

If you also don't want to interact with someone for fear of forcing yourself onto them when they don't want to talk, you're in my camp.

I'm pretty outgoing to my friends, but the period of time during which I don't know anyone at, say, a homeschool co-op is the toughest part for me.

Gatanui

Apr 11 2012 02:08 PM

Aw, I know how you feel. Among strangers I'm usually very shy, too... but once I get to know people, I turn into a waterfall. xDOn BZPower it's much better, though. for some weird reason...and hey, ramblings can be very interesting, too!

That could be pretty much me, although I try my best not to be too shy.

It hasn´t done me very much good.

Not at all weird. It´s much easier to talk when you don´t see the person you are talking to because you don´t see their reaction to everything you say and don´t judge yourself and what you say as much.

-Gata

The Inquisitive Automaton

Apr 11 2012 03:47 PM

Well, it's a relief to know I'm not the only one who feels this way.

But the thing with BZPower...Well, I'm a lot better on here, I can hold conversations and stuff, but I still worry about the impressions I give off which restricts what I say and how I act. But, blagh.

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