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Rain-soaked Tile

Posted by Janus , Sep 21 2006 · 21 views
Crazy Writing
It's been a pretty good day today. I finally finished my first ever (and absolutely terrible) Gundam SEED 1/144 High Grade Model. The Calamity Gundam, piloted by Orga Sabnak.

(Seriously, I went to a course on Gunpla* modeling, and they already explained that everything I did on this model is so wrong. Luckily my next models, the CGUE type DEEP arms, the Forbidden Gundam, the Destiny Gundam, The Dreadnought** Gundam, the Destiny Gundam***, and the Strike Noir Gundam will be far, far better with all the info I'm learning)

After finishing that model I crashed for a bit at my sisters, and then went off to Metrotown (A popular BC mall. Way too popular, mind you) Skip ahead a bit, I picked up the first Invader Zim DVD for my mom, and finally designed the layout of her present. It's going to be a scavenger hunt with her present at the very end. It all went swimmingly. In fact it went so well, that I feel I needed to get some writing out, so here it is, the first Janus story that has been public in quite some time.

Rain-Soaked Tile

"Could you pick up some eggs while you're out?"
My sister asked, her voice carrying just above the satisfied giggles of her young child. With a grin I responded that I could and promptly left, the door swinging shut behind me and settling in with a satisfied click. With a slow and steady movement I pulled my heavy coat over my shoulders and pressed the 'play' button on my PSP, instaneously my mind was filled with the soothing sounds of Pachabel's Canon in D minor Smiling I set on my way down the long hallway.

The elevator slid open with a slight hiss, dingy and badly lit it trembled slightly as I stepped inside and made my floor selection. With a jerk it dropped, rattling and shaking all the way, my stomach churned but remained steady, finallly with a last shake the doors slid open and stepped out on the ground floor, the grey sky and dreary weather plainly in sight. With a small sigh I heaved the door open and stepped out into a blast of wind and rain. With a glance skywards I wished I had brought an umbrella from home--unfortunately home was many miles away, and across a bridge. Oh well, C'est La Vie.

I noted with some chagrin that the music had shifted from Pachabel to a more fitting and morose tune, the single working headphone on my machine streaming out tales of woe. Slightly perturbed at this change in background noise I shifted my eyes downards, watching as the rain pitter-pattered off the soaking wet pavement. What a great day to be outside, huh?

The cars and traffic whirled by, their lights gleaming crimson and gold through the mist of the rain, there were very few people on the sidewalk with me--few enough that I felt I could indulge myself in a hidden pleasure, with a small, reserved smile I opened my mouth and began to sing along with Satori Negishi to a personal favourite of mine Hoshi No Tobira of Gundam SEED Destiny: Stargazer fame. A few more tracks, more rain, a constant deluge of the stuff just pouring down. More songs, more singing and then people started showing up, slowly at first, as is always the case but soon they were filling the sidewalks. I sighed, of course I knew it would happen but nevertheless the dreamer never wants to be woken when the dream is satisfying.

Finally I arrived at the skytrain station, a monument of bricks and simple technology, guided by remote computers and a team of highly trained professionals in a tower far from the remote station I was boarding at. Nervously I felt in my pocket for my sister's buspass, satisfied it was still in my pocket where I had left I ascended the rough stone staircase and waited on the platform, happily breathing in the fresh, wet air.

In a flash of motion and colour the skytrain arrived, touting the location to which I wished to travel. Seeing the crowded exterior I took my favourite position near the sliding doors and leaned against the transparent plastic 'window' which divided those sitting from those who, like me, chose to stand instead. The trademark tones came over the speaker and with a sudden lurch we were off.

Stations flew by, people flew by, places flew by. People I didn't know, places I knew but didn't care about, places I did know and did care about, people I thought I knew, and stations that I vaguely remembered in the recesses of my mind. Every time the doors slid open with their serpentine hiss I became so aware of the vibrancy and life within everything, from the cold white metal that composed the many stations, to the faded yellow warning paint on the slick tile, and every time the doors slid shut the thick plastic windows muted everything, turning the bright into the dull. I watched this all with an indescribable feeling.

Finally I was one station before my terminus location; a crackle over the loudspeakers and the computerized female voice informed us of the locale we were pulling into. I closed my eyes and allowed the sounds of the train to wash over me and when I opened them something within me gave a tug.

There was a sight, indescribable, really that in my many years of riding the skyrain I had never seen, and may never see again. The car I was in was near the edge of the station, far from the protective sheet metal that made up the brunt of this paticular stop, no, I was in a place lit only by the natural, grey, light from the sky. Rain-soaked tile split only by two metal poles was all I could see at first, and then--then directly across from me, crossing that Rain-soaked tile, and on the other side of those metal poles, holding up their weak sheets of plastic was another train just like mine.

I'm sure it seems absurd and even a bit silly, but there was a train exactly like mine directly opposite to me, both of our doors were open, there was someone standing in my exact location and it suddenly struck me how amazing it was. I could see them and they could see me, and there was some sort of connection, some primal, human connection. Somehow across that rain-soaked tile I discovered the feeling of...humanity.

I don't know how long we stayed there, the train silently humming as the influx and eflux of passengers continued, I can't imagine it was very long. But after what seemed like an eternity of a second the doors slid shut on both trains. The connection was cut and simultaneously both trains pulled out of the station.

And the rain continued to pour.





My apologies on the story, it's a little rough, but it's not really for anything but me. You're simply getting the chance to peer into my head.



*GUNdam PLAstic models
** That's how it's officially spelled, oh Engrish, how I love thee.
*** This is the coolest Gundam in the world, that is all.


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And With That Wonderful Voice She Said

Posted by Janus , Aug 31 2006 · 21 views
General Crazy
I am the coolest loser on the block.

'cause I rock

The socks

with knocks.

Also, it is late and I am eating cake.

This is so going to kill my rep.


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Waves

Posted by Janus , Jul 21 2006 · 20 views
General Crazy
Ever had one of those days wherein everything seems akin to waves rolling on the ocean? a constant ebb and flow of happiness, sorrow, and general indifference?

Often my emotions stay rather stationary. If I had a bad day it can turn good, likewise if I've had a good day, it can very easily turn bad--however never before have I experienced such a myriad of--moodswings I suppose one could call it.

I awoke this morning, early, and saddened--what I was saddened by I really can't say. My mind simply couldn't hold on to whatever it was. Mercifully I was spared waking and was able to slip back into the realm of sleep. Unfortunately, of course I again awoke, this time the pervasive sadness remained and my body was sore and stiff beyond all belief.

Shrugging off my usual morning workout, I instead took a bath--a bath which I managed to sleep through entirely, waking only when the water was lukewarm and generally unpleasant to be in. Note to self: Stop bringing books or work with you to the bath. You never do anything but sleep.

After that I popped in my contacts and managed to set off the fire alarm once more. I swear that thing goes off at the slightest inclination--thankfully this means I won't be burned to death horribly. At least I think it does.

Shortly after that it was onto work. Being unable to access my favourite webcomics I was left with a graphic designing project that took up roughly an hour. Almost sad, really, considering what a relatively simply concept the project was.

After that it was breakfast--then dinner. And I literally do mean "then dinner" my breakfast was eaten at roughly 12:48 PM GST and then my dinner was begun at 1:15 PM GST. Such is my schedule.

After breakfast, it was time to E-mail those files to my work, and get changed and ready to teach classes. While still feeling sick and sore that all managed to dissapear as soon as my Basics class arrived, I love those kids. Even though they're just Orange Belts and Yellow Belts they've still got the best attitude ever. I worked them hard in hot weather and they never complained once, they enjoyed it just as much as me. Then I took our two Black Belt Training members and we worked out on weapons and sparring, they're totally new to sparring and so it was fun taking them through the basics. Next was Protech which was basically the exact same people, plus one more. Self defense and weapons and then I had a one person class.

By that time the heat was nearly unbearable, so we basically sat around and talked as much as we could. Of course we still worked on forms and the basics, then we had some fun playing around with the staffs. My dad, and my boss, basically left me alone for the whole day, he had other work to do so I got to teach almost all of the classes, the only person who got taught by him was one of our Red/Black Belts, who will be testing for her Black Belt in August, I wish her all the luck in the world. Aside from that my last class consisted soley of my wonderful White Belts, including a brand new addition, oh it was fun to work with them--even though the heat was still pretty intense.

Due to our other instructor not showing up, we got to end a bit early, that meant I got to go home and chat with my friends--not that it really involved much.

But something happened, I'm really not sure what, or how, or even why, but after this incredible upswing from awful to wonderful something happened to place it in the middle. A deep melancholy settled over me. In fact it's only because I'm writing again that I'm managing to shake it off--in fact I think I may just open one of my more recent projects and begin writing again. "Metal Man" here I come.

Oh, and if you're in the White Rock area and have thought about Martial Arts, feel free to give us a try, we love having new people come in.

Aside from that I think that I've basically rambled my thoughts out. In fact I don't anticipate any reaction to this as so much of it is personal, but heck, I've been surprised by you guys before. Who knows?

-Robert


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So.

Posted by Janus , Jun 26 2006 · 22 views
General Crazy
So, this is a blog, eh?

Heh, I've played around with such things before, but to have one on BZPower is rather unique. I honestly never expected to be utilizing such a feature on this site-- but then I realized how odd it would be for the Blog Leader (Or thought police commander, if I do say so m'self) to be minus a blog, and thus I created what you see before you.

This will generally be a place where I post any oddities or interests I have. Any appropriate writing may be sneak-peeked here, and perhaps you'll even find out why I'm such a bitter, jaded, husk of a man.

Except not.

Thought Police Commander signing off,

-Janus







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