The Junk Heap

Bugger. Well, after that well-thought out intro, I better give a reason for it. I just had another weak moment and spent £70 online. Shirts and books and stuff. I hate being weak-willed. Still, they’re all pretty cool and I’ll be sure to post pictures when they arrive.

I’m starting to get the idea teachers are trying to annoy me. In both Business Studies and English Language we were asked to do group work. Due to my aforementioned social incapabilities, I hate it when this happens. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve tried to integrate and become part of the class, but it’s been made clear I don’t fit in that well. That’s why group work usually results in me just sitting awkwardly to the side as everyone chats amongst themselves. Oh, and when we work in groups, that usually means we’re drawing A3 or larger posters. I bloody hate posters.

Thursday is the only day when I get one lesson directly after the other, with no break in between and it was in those lessons where I had a mock exam. Two hours of solid writing, five and a half pages filled with text. Film Studies essay went horribly, English Literature essay went brilliantly. Weird that.

I wrote my personal statement for University today. Given I’ll be studying for a degree in English, I was sure to note down that I’m currently writing “The Best Kept Secrets”, to evidence my enthusiasm. Not that I mentioned it was a Bionicle fanfic. They don’t need to know that much, yet.

(Caution: Epic-related rambling ahead. Enter at your own caution.)

Looks like something is inevitably going to have to give. I was on the bus home today, listening to the Doctor Who soundtrack when the last minute or so of "The Lone Dalek" slipped into my ears and it was spell-bindingly gorgeous. Using it as inspiration, I then began to develop one of the last couple of scenes for The Darkest Hour and I honestly fell in love with it. Were it not so out of place. For the scene in question was fitting for, perhaps, the final act, but not for two thirds into the story. That then got me reconsidering, would I be able to fit it in at all? I didn't even have a resolution for Before and After yet, so how could I possibly? And then I started assessing all the other things I couldn't quite find a way yet to adequately describe and they all linked back to one thing. The species I was intending to introduce, the Before. I've been assessing them and seeing them as little more than problematic, given they shift the tone entirely and just seem out of place in general, given practically nobody's heard of them. So, that's caused me to come to the conclusion that, as a plot, I may have to drop them. Fortunately, I don't think I've made little more than one or two subtle and casual references to them, so they won't even appear absent. I hope. What this does mean is that it looks like I can no longer refer to this as a trilogy and it will only be a two-parter.

So, yeah. tl;dr: Before are the weak link in the chain that is The Best Kept Secrets + The Darkest Hour, so must be broken.

Might have gone a bit overboard. I bought this yesterday...

Sometimes I feel sorry for my friends, having to put up with my...eccentricities. Not only was today the day I decided I needed to create a style for myself, which would comprise of a leather jacket and hat, but before they even saw me that morning, they received the weird texts typical of whenever I find an interesting song or book that has enraptured me. Today, a fair portion of them received eight texts, seven of which said only "Loyalty", and the last one saying "Only to me..." like the calling card of some terrifying serial killer.

So, yes, I have been spending the day listening devotedly to my latest discovery, "Mordred's Lullaby (TOL mix)", by Heather Cale. I strongly insist people check it out. Whether you like it or not, it's mystical and catchy. I've now been invested with an interest in the Arthurian legends and have created another two characters who I intend to install into my ever-growing list of RPG characters, as well as an upcoming short-story/epic I'm thinking up ideas for.

So, I was just feeling in the mood for exposure to the gorgeously sombre NieR and searched "Grimoire Weiss" into Google. I then found this:



Whyyyyyyy?!