Up Up And Away

Tuxedo

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 23:13:00 +0000

I have spent a lot of time at the doctor this week! It is getting very tiresome. Those that have known me for a while will know that this is probably not surprising. But alas!

I did find myself a tuxedo t-shirt. So I am feeling pretty spiffy, not gonna lie. I've been debating getting myself a nice unisex suit for a while, but until I have the funds for it, this will have to do.

Sup, BZP, hope you're having a good Wednesday~

An Aspie Question

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 19:34:00 +0000

I am never going to get used to writing that. OTL

But uh, okay, since I know there are other aspies wandering around the blogs: Are you able to feel when you're getting overstimulated? And what do you do to get yourself calmed down again?

I get very, very irritable and upset, kind of like the feeling you get if someone pokes you with a stick and doesn't listen when you tell them to stop. I just haven't found good ways to get myself back to a calm state. So I'd like to hear what other people do.

-Nik

Google Eyes

Fri, 11 Jan 2013 22:29:00 +0000

So I have been bedridden for like three days now because of medicine complications.

And then I get this card dropped into my lap this afternoon.

Naturally in my drug-induced-state I completely forget to look at the return address and just open it.

It's got lots and lots of glitter and a lacy dove with big googley eyes on it.

First thought:

"Oh dear god it's gotta be from HH and Janus"

(spoilers: I was right)

A belated Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, guys. \o\ \o/ /o/ I got Professor Layton and frosted animal crackers and my own cane! You bet I'm happy.

Its Own Sort Of Beauty

Fri, 07 Dec 2012 02:32:00 +0000

The world is not beautiful, but that in itself leads to its own sort of beauty.

Humans are far from perfect and shall always do as humans do, but in their own ways to deny, defy, or even reach for their own perfection, they shine as the phenomenal creatures they really are. To embrace both strengths and faults as just things that are.

I think that's a pretty beautiful thing.

Life has been difficult right now. It hurts. It's hard. One might say it's been ugly from time to time.

But you know, I'd rather it be ugly for the time being. That just means there's something ready to shine underneath.

It just needs time.

Then we can see something beautiful again.

-Nik

AS Update

Fri, 23 Nov 2012 05:55:00 +0000

Celebrating my holiday with a diagnosis of Asperger's and General Anxiety Disorder. I start social therapy on Monday.

But I am just thankful to have a name for things. Not gonna lie.

Happy Thanksgiving, BZP. Hope you find something to be thankful for, too. <3

-Nik

A worried little musing about AS

Wed, 14 Nov 2012 05:38:00 +0000

Two blog entries in a month?

Dear god. SOMEONE CALL THE COPS

But anyways.

So this time next week I will apparently (hopefully) have a diagnosis of either Asperger's syndrome or PDD-NOS (atypical autism) along with an anxiety disorder that I can never catch the proper name of. This has been 3 and a half months of doctor visits and like years of awkward and mistakes and horribleness in the making and I am still not sure how to feel about it.

I mean, being autistic on any level doesn't change who I am or anything. I'm still me. But it's like... a question on everyone's mind of "why didn't we really take care of this sooner?" My sister especially. She worries about me often.

But yeah, that has been on my mind for a while. I am a boat floating forever on a sea of uncertainties and flaily useless panic. Glub.

(This has been a totally quality blog entry of worrying from Nik, you guys can move on now.)

-Nik

Happiest of Birthdays

Wed, 07 Nov 2012 19:39:00 +0000

It is currently my 22nd birthday.

We have a president and I am so okay with that.

Maryland did some lovely things.

I finally have a bass guitar in my hands for the first time in almost 2 years, Ibanez left-handed 3/4, and I am playing Day Tripper like it was only yesterday.

Life is pretty okay right now, guys. <3

-Nik

Sandy

Mon, 29 Oct 2012 19:57:00 +0000

We're just getting the furthest tendrils of it here at home. Lots of wind - some of the gusts are already knocking power out and ripping shingles off of roofs. But it's not horrible.

There's lots of family in Point Pleasant and Atlantic City (some of which we haven't had contact with) so we're glued to the phones and the weather reports especially with the eye of the storm over that part of NJ right now. So it is basically a super fun day today.

East Coast members: bunker down and stay safe, you guys. o/

-Nik

I Totally Have Adventures

Wed, 19 Sep 2012 16:09:00 +0000

Nik's summer, in condensed form:

Lots of sleep
Lots of rainbow cupcakes
Lots of playing of the piano
Got a new dog! Chocolate lab - he's a sweetie.
There was a wedding in there somewhere as well. My sister looked gorgeous and she's very happy with her new husband.
Had to drop my last semester of college, but I'm okay with that. My credits aren't going anywhere.
Got screened for GAD and high-functioning Asperger's. And everyone proceeded to wonder why we didn't do this like 5 years ago. This is still a work in progress. (I was also screened for ADHD, which was ruled out - be proud of me, Becca, I actually bothered to ask!)
Played way too much minigolf.
Rewatched Legends of Metru Nui more times than I can count.

I guess that final one is what made me roll back on here for a little bit, hah. Hi BZ, I missed yooooou. I also missed Vakama. But I think I missed you a little more than Vakama.

*flops on everyone*

blows the dust off this blog

Wed, 25 Jul 2012 02:28:00 +0000

Woooow, it's been a while. Like. More than a year.

Good lord, I feel old.

Hey, BZP. Missed you bunches, and I hope you're all doing well.

<3

-Nik