Alive. Barely... But alive nonetheless.
I used to think my life was bad. I look back and laugh at the very notion. At least, I would if I felt I could actually laugh at anything... Let's recap what's happened since my last blog post.
It was discovered I have Crohn's disease, and accompanying that is rheumatoid arthritis, a non-cancerous tumor the size of a softball on my pancreas, and the only medications strong enough to work quadruple my risk of cancer and heart disease. I also can no longer take some of my psychiatric meds, so I'm very depressed and irritable. The extended hospital stays resulting from this means that I failed this school year and now am pretty much forced to get my GED as I can't attend school regularly until either my meds get sorted out or the doctors give up and give me a colostomy bag (don't ask).
I've been robbed. Twice.
I haven't been to my dad's house since... Heck, I can't even remember. I could care less about dad, but I really miss my (half)brothers... I can barely even remember what they look like.
My grandmother (dad's mom) recently died, and my great-grandfather (mom's dad's dad) is in bad condition, but that is to be expected of someone of his age, he's over 90... And my great-uncle (mom's dad's sister's husband) is not doing much better.
One of my best childhood friends had a baby (she's 19) and she doesn't know who the father is.
My would-be girlfriend's parents are going through a nasty divorce, and I'm too far away to be of any help (hence the would-be).
And on top of that, my mom's boyfriend has moved in, and there's no way possible to fully and accurately describe the man without large amounts of expletives. But for starters, he's bigoted, hypocritical, racist, thieving, lying, discriminating, etc.
Oh, and let's not forget what all this is doing to my mental stability! Did I ever tell you guys I sometimes have problems with multiple personalities? It's happened 3 times in my life. The first time was when I was in elementary school; I don't remember much about this one, along with the rest of my childhood. Then, around the time I started highschool, my other half was a sadistic, evil son of a maha that made up plans to take over the world in his spare time and occasionally wrenched control of my body from me and physically assaulted family members. I called him O'Malley (from Red vs. Blue). Then, my latest one, who just appeared a few months ago and is still hanging around. Pretty normal when looked at as an individual, but weird and awkward when compared to me. First off, female and incredibly girly (and constantly complaining about being stuck in a guy's body). Second, relatively mature, wise, and has a good grasp of everything that's going on (I may be intellectual, but my common sense and ability to apply my knowledge to real-world applications is lacking to say the least), as well as a surprisingly effective psychologist and counsellor, which is weird considering how she came about. Very social and outgoing; I'm a pretty quiet guy that prefers solitude. Then throw in a large dose of general weirdness, one of the few things we actually have in common. She's actually the first of the three that I get along with. Also the first that has a full name, which I will not reveal, but her first name is Jessica. And unlike the other two, she hasn't done anything to make my life more difficult. If anything she's actually improved it.
So, in short: my life has gone to Karzahni, and being crazy is FUN!
IN OTHER NEWS! If anybody's in southern Louisiana this Sunday, me and the rest of the Bayou Community Band (as well as the Jr. band and the choir) are having a concert, PM me for details if you wanna attend. I'll buy you dinner!