Noxryn

it's my birthday now im 22 and that's about it woop i got myself stormblood for my birthday

It Comes at Night sucks

maybe, most of the people I am gonna let read it after it's finished on my end are more to help with editing/being a third party to kind of tell me if I messed up overall flow, or consistency, or if there's errors I missed etc... since I want to ultimately publish it and sell it

54,000 words written 34,000 are from this year (10k a month, only on 4k for April so far) probably... August or June for completion date pending then it's all about the editing really enjoying writing the transgender lesbian harpy warrior who is now known to make inappropriate jokes for the situation

nerd

I used to pose them sometimes and take pictures for fun. Otherwise, sometimes I'd use them as drawing references, I'd moc things and make stories out of it (I have a penchant for doing that idk), or I'd build stuff to calm down from bad anxiety attacks in the middle of the night (or any time, really). Last two MOCs I built, both kind of unfinished, were done during potent anxiety attacks and it overall helps me distract myself and calm myself down. So, I guess I mostly use them for therapeutic reasons?

I got a lot of stuff when Serein came to visit, though I'd have to actually go through it all again to make such a comprehensive list as she did xp (I mean I might do that sometime, it's just all upstairs currently and I'm comfy) But right now, the most recent thing was Within Temptation's album Hydra.

"Let Us Burn" -- Within Temptation: Hydra

A number of my friends own the system and, to my knowledge, none of them have experienced any of the hardware issues or problems described here? Then again, I honestly can't think of a released console where lemons did not exist. Either way, the system itself looks like fun. The portability is nice, the variety of controller set up is nice, a lot of the games look enticing to me (Zelda: Breath of the Wild, Splatoon 2, Mario Kart 8, Fire Emblem: Heroes, Disgaea 5, etc... ) I'd like to pick one up eventually. As of now, they're pretty much sold out everywhere and Amazon mostly has an army of scammers selling them.

Screw it. It's fun. No shame in having fun, and having something to help relax and blow off steam.

what was that feeling like my topics sucked ;~;

yes i also vaguely recall like a weird file-ish looking icon from forever ago to signify topics im like 50% sure that was here and 50% unsure if that was here

i turn 22 in june so not really half my life yet but remember when the topic things were little envelopes i liked those

youd be really surprised at how diverse this site actually is, its just that a lot of people might just not ever talk about a lot of that kind of stuff. idk if this is still how it is since ive been largely inactive as of late, but i know as recently as just a few years ago - especially before the server upgrade in 2011, when the site was really active - this site had a LOT of specifically conservative christian people. needless to say, it fostered a rather ... unpleasant environment, at least to me i for one know like, a dozen trans women alone who are/were members of bzpower, myself included. i also happen to be a lesbian myself, if my original post was any indication I'm still heavily reminded of, before the server and website upgrade, way back when any LGBT+ content was absolutely not allowed in Short Stories, Epics, Artwork, or any creative work or form of expression. Not to mention all of the (largely) ex-members who used to be incredibly cruel, abrasive and insulting that would stir up things every now and again. When those days were those days this place absolutely sucked to be a part of. It's been nice to make blog entries/posts talking about transgender stuff, or mentioning my girlfriend, etc... without someone coming along to insult me over it (By and large, experience can vary). So I guess what's on my mind now is just that I'm grateful the website became a lot more open over time, that a lot of the people who caused trouble and problems in the memberbase by dehumanizing and actively harming, harassing, insulting, degrading other members are largely gone.

i found pictures of my old moc i made during a panic attack a few years ago and i kinda wanna find where i put her so i can finish her

not even once

i put them on my tumblr/twitter lol technically i could put them here since it's not nsfw content at all, and it's designed to be worn on its own even though i put a coat on to hide some of the tags so i could return it eventually

my girlfriend found a spongebob corset costume thing from party city and i said id wear it if she found it if someone told me ten years ago i'd one day put that on id have laughed at them yet here we are

I'm happy for it, it's nice to have a site where there's actually a community of trans people in general on it considering how many places I've gone to and been the only one around. I knew a good number of the members for years, and knowing them and being offsite and stuff where they were around, was sort of where I got the courage and confidence to explore that information (both online and IRL) and it was nice to be able to come out in a place where it felt a lot safer to do so. Being the token trans chick in guilds and other places usually ends up with a lot of weird questions and everything, so I'm glad here that doesn't really happen lol

If you ever feel like you want to talk, feel free to message me or anything c: I wish you the best!

tbh i felt this way when i looked back at my old high school notebooks i had like so many lists of outfits and like so many descriptions of Weird Gender Feelings and i sat there like "... how did i... not notice all this sooner... like..."

there's activity but not nearly as much as there used to be, but tbh forums in general feel like relics of an older time on the internet with so many other options that are now available for everyone to use even most tbrpg forums i was on died out or swapped to other formats, like Discord

congrats! i hope you have a great time together c:

pineapple brings happiness, glowing death shoulder brings pain

b/c it is the greatest form of disrespect