Posted Jan 06 2015 - 07:35 PM
Hold on to your bio mechanical butts, this'll be a bit personal and kind of long.Gosh I have had a very...interesting...last few months. First I said I'd resume Helios. That obviously hasn't happened. A day or so after that statement I went through a breakup, and while it has turned out to be very good for me to no longer be in that relationship (as it was stifling me, I wasn't really me, I was just someone trying to make a very selfish and vain person happy in the end...oops. Remember kids, it's important to take care of your own personal growth. Don't give up everything because someone else wants you to devote all your energy to THEIR aspirations. And when that goes to far that can be considered emotional abuse. It sucked but I'm free and far stronger and happier now).
That knocked me down for a good week of your standard post breakup sads but soon enough my friends in theatre talked me in to auditioning and I got into three plays. Turns out I'm pretty good at acting. I also then had to write a short story, create a fairly large poetry portfolio, and then later illustrate the portfolio for my creative writing class. The past three months have just completely absorbed what vast quantities of free time I have been used to in the past as well as draining my creativity reserves. I love to make stories, and I love the sprite comic medium. However, with performances coming up at the end of this month and then auditions for the spring play, combined with my last semester of highschool and then graduation as well as now working at our towns community theatre on and off (and maybe even auditioning there)...it's more than I've ever done at once. And it is awesome. I really would love to either resume Dead Authors (because I like my odd sense of humor) or start the next chapter of Helios, but I have very little time and energy to expend on this. However, I will still try to add, well, anything to this topic. Most likely random comics in the Dead Author theme. Maybe Helios, although I also wish to actually write a story I've had in mind for a while. In the past I've occasionally alluded to having anxiety and depression at times, and while I don't have the problem I once had when I first joined this forum, I do still have occasional moments of, just not goodness. While my newest creative outlet is acting, comic making will always hold a special place in my heart and soul. It has been a very bumpy ride, but I've been egged along by a mix of friends and readers who stayed loyal even despite several bad runs and restarts, and what small gems I did provide. Art, in its many forms, particularly comics, short stories, poetry and acting have all been great helps in dealing with my issues.
I'd like to thank everyone who's ever read my stuff and especially those who took time to leave a remark or two (even more to those who offered advice). It's been a good time, but I can only make comics when I enjoy making them, otherwise it becomes a chore as soe many before me have said. I hope to still give you guys an occasional laugh or slight smile before September arrives (in which case I will be gone for two years for a church mission and then college after that). These could very well be the last few months that I have time to be on BZP. Here's to new years, new beginnings, and new stories.
-Much love and appreciation, Logan.