There was one last issue to be resolved, something that manifested as an underlying tension in all our conversations and a stilted laughter as the topic was brought up in passing, and it surfaced at last. This probably won't mean anything to most of you, and I think that is one of life's few mercies.

It's come to my attention tonight as I (and my partner in conflict) finally gathered the courage to dredge up the past to finally put it to rest in the open. To that end, I'm creating this entry to issue a public apology to my very, very good and patient friend Andrew, whom I inadvertently stabbed in the back as I attempted to walk the fence between two sides that I related to both on a very personal and emotional level. Though I say this, I'm in no way trying to justify my actions or words with regard to him. What I did was wrong and hurtful, and something that no amount of regret will ever absolve. My words were careless as I said things about him to others that I never meant in a cowardly attempt to avoid conflict, though I knew that it was inevitable.

I've stood by his side for years, and my sudden but inevitable betrayal was unwarranted and absolutely vile, and I can only hope he's forgiven me. I've sabotaged our relationship and my actions will serve as a blight on my record for as long as I'm alive.

We talked at length and finally resolved the issue, one-on-one, by pulling our feeling out in the open to see, but a public confession for everyone else seems like the only proper way to put it all down for good.

I support my friend Andrew, and no amount of words can convey the amount of respect I have for him and his convictions to his beliefs. He's kind, polite, fair, well-meaning, and understanding even when we disagree. To turn on him the way I did is irredeemable. If anything, the weakness of character and sullied reputation should be on me for my actions, and not him.

That said, during the entire unspeakable event I stuck with him to a menial extent, vowing to resign as a staff member were he to be let go for any reason. This doesn't justify the backstabbing that followed, I just felt like it was worth pointing out that he's resolved to keep out of debates because neither of us want to leave.

I'm keeping this entry locked to avoid any accusations against him or any polite justifications for myself, of which there are none. Thanks for understanding, everyone.

(I'm not going anywhere and neither is he. Cheers!)