Good News And Really Bad News...
Ok, the good news? Graduation's tommorow! Yay! By bye ES!
That's all I got.
NOTE: Comments regarding the bad news, I do not want to here "You shouln't have done that" or "That was a stupid thing to do"
Here comes the long bad news. Yes, it's Amanda related...
Deep down inside I knew that I would never bring myself to talk to her before tommorow. So, I did my last resort: another note.
My plan was to have Brent give it to her at recess when she was alone. All the letter said was that I was sorry that I never talked to her, that I was sorry for my friends embarrassing her, that I thought she should actually get to know me instead of finding out info from rumors (Hey, someone has to), and that I just liked her. No loving. No freakish attraction.
So...um. Yeah, here it comes.
At recess we (Andrew, me, and Brent) waited a looooooong time until she left the company of her friends. As I've observed, she never does. So, It was time. Me and Andrew went and sat at the bench area in the far side of the 'ground', while I gave Brent instructions to just go up to her, say "Here. This is for you." and walk off (not towards me). He did.
------YOU COULD NOT IMAGINE HOW MUCH STRESS I WAS IN IN THOSE TWO MINUTES------
The worst thing happened once he got back to us, ALL of her friends were crowded around her. It was a giant gathering circle. I was panicking and screaming in my mind at the same time. I was so frightened as we lined up to go inside for lunch. One of her friends (that was in my class) came up to me, shoved me hard, called me a pervert, and a couple of other nasty comments. (I was wondering why she did that since I did not put anything of "that nature" into that letter).
Later, Brent asked why she said that, and he said, she said that I was "sounding all nice when, really, I'm mean and gross".
Then that brings me to my solution: if I'm getting the chance, I'm apolagizing. Because now I have a bunch of people egging me on to do this. After embarassing the heck out of her...
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