So, Niki really needed to re-publish this, more for herself that anything else.
Living life and doing stuff at school is harder this year, for multiple reasons. It took me a while to remember that the hectic pace of life won't stop just because inconvenient or seemingly unfair things happen to me or to people I know. It's difficult, and sometimes it's hard to realize that all I can do is keep trekking and aim for the main promises I gave to myself and to other people. I have no reason to mope about it - in fact, that often just makes it worse. I have people I know who love me, so even if I feel alone, I can't use the excuse of being alone.
I may not be able to do things I used to for whatever reason, but I can still encourage, train, chide, listen, understand, and love. I can still be me, even when it feels like life is trying to turn me into someone else.
That's really, really hard to do some days, but it's always true.
The current me wants to be kind, compassionate, honest, understanding of other people and putting them before myself. I'll take that any day over being negative, self-centered, snappy, rude, and deceitful, simply because life is taking a turn I am scared about or that I do not want.
I'd rather be a person other people enjoy, and more importantly I'd like to be someone I can enjoy looking back at in the mirror every day. Wouldn't you agree?