Tonight just is not my night. This weekend hasn't been a great weekend. Uhg.

Anyway, tonight I'm struggling to write this paper. I have some basic ideas, but I just don't know where to begin. Typically, it's due tomorrow.

And what's even worst is that I shouldn't have to write it either...

It's for a drama class... I already struggled through one paper on a performance last week. But we were suppose to be able to get out of writing the second paper if we ushered for a play... basically stood at the front door, greeted people, took their tickets, gave 'em programs, directed them where to go, ext. We had to do that twice. I have already done it once, and I was suppose to usher last Sunday at 6 pm.

Only I was in the library at 6 on Sunday, working on this other project, and completely blanked on my ushering job.

I've sent an e-mail of apology, and they said it wasn't a problem because enough people showed up to cover the jobs (when I did it the first time around, one three of us showed up, and there were suppose to be more... I'm thinking a bit less than ten, maybe 7). But they didn't specify if I could do one more ushering job... and I've heard that if you miss one, they bar you from retaking it.

So I'm in a precarious situation. They haven't e-mailed me back a second time confirming that I can do it again (I asked real nicely too!). And I need to do it once more if I want to skip said paper due tomorrow. Well, I could wait it out and see what their reply is. If they say yes, all is well. If they say no... then that grade for the paper becomes a zero because I didn't do enough ushering to be able to skip the paper, which I didn't turn in. Or I could write the paper, and be guaranteed at least a partial grade.

Yeah, that's the logical thing to do... and I can write papers pretty well, but I always seem to have this mental block that keeps me from starting on it. I just can't figure out where to start, and it's nerve wrecking! (On, and on the other hand, I have a (nother) chem midterm Thursday, along with a research project that I haven't completely started yet...) So I'm kinda stressed out right now...

On the other hand... no chem lab this week, no chem homework due this week, thanksgiving and a Billy Joel concert next week, and I totally aced my Geography midterm. But somehow life's ups never seem to make up for life's downs.

I'm going to wrack my brain for examples to include in this essay, while striving to keep myself off BZPower and other forum related websites... you know, after I post this and wait twenty minutes to see if anybody'll reply to it.

*BANG*