And I am so very thankful for that. My Writing class has sucked most of my motivation out because I feel like my final grade isn't under my control. Like, I could spend another hour on the essay or I could log another 15 and it would not make a difference. And that is not how a writing class should feel. Logging a solid 15-20 hours on an essay to almost get a D is stupidly motivation crushing. Especially when the reasons that I got the grade don't make sense. I think it's worthy pointing out that when the teacher asked about how well the students thought they where going to do everyone in the class looked beat down and dejected. I think that says a lot about this class.

My chem class is going fine but I'm ready for that to be done. If you've read previous blog entries you probably have a pretty good idea why. It didn't progress beyond that, but I just feel incredibly stupid about what I did.

The computer class is just "eh" at this point.

And I need a job. I was told to reapply at sonic (again) and if I get hired I'm not going to complain because it's on a bus route and close and stuff. But I feel like being told I have a job and not getting one for reasons that I don't even know let alone have control over is dumb.

Oh, and my Ex decided to show up at my church last night. Let me tell you what, that was an experience. Nothing actually happened, but I couldn't so much look her in the eye and I felt like a coiled spring for what felt like an hour but was probably five minutes. And I don't even know why I'm posting this here. Guess it can't hurt to vent, right?

So yeah. Life is fun.

Quick note: Blade Symphony is a fantastic game.