I know I'm not for one to be serious on BZPower. (I mean, just look at my avatar... )

Most of the time being here, I've only come sometimes when I feel like I need to be nerdy. In the past, I used to be very insecure about my identity. Thankfully, that's all over and I brag about all my strange nerdy fascinations and huge amounts of knowledge in pointless internet jokes and fads.

However, I felt like writing to everyone that will read this about how much this Website and Bionicle itself has played a huge part in my life. I know where most of my abilities come from, but being a student studying Graphic Design at a university and working at a job that can easily pay for it would not have happened if it wasn't a couple of things.

When I found out that LEGO was gonna re-release Bionicle, it really hit a nerve for me. It hit a nerve in a very different way than most things do.

I can't really distinguish what I'm feeling right now. (besides being tired from being at school all day.

I can't really distinguish between if I'm feeling sad or extremely motivated about life right now.

Sad meaning that my long dream of Bionicle finally returning, but I can't do anything about it. (Eg. like buy a lot of sets on a consistent basis and use them for MOCs) Sad that my friends could potentially judge me as this dysfunctional man-boy that can't put his toys down while in the work place.

OR

Super motivated that LEGO is actually conceptualizing RIGHT NOW AS WE SPEAK about some map ideas or Kanohi ideas or story ideas!

Super motivated to consider pursing my super secret dream of doing graphic design work for the Art direction department for Bionicle!

Super motivated that I can finally brag and discuss on a product and story that has such a rich history!

Super motivated that, as I progress through college and save my finances for a potential spouse one day, I can be on BZPower again, engage in more conversations, and actually get to know more people that actually like Bionicle as much as I do!

Super motivated that I can buy toys again for bragging right's sake!

But...am I just being stupid about all this? Like I don't understand if I'm truly being immature or MUH-ture about this. I feel like most adult men would consider this kind of thing as nothing important. As if I should saying "Oh hey, Bionicle's coming back? Huh...cool", and then forget about it. Like I feel as though that MIGHT be the better response to this.

But in contrast! Bionicle and BZPower was introduced to me by some friends and I got SO into it, that I discovered sprites, avatars, signatures, comedies….basically the internet! And the best part of all, PHOTOSHOP! The very thing I still do, since day one of actually getting inspired from Bionicle and BZPower, is use Photoshop! I've been drawing hard-core since 2008. And it wasn't until the day my Dad told me that I needed to draw something else besides Bionicles that I started becoming more Graphic Design orientated. And my studies and my talents are real. Like I know for a fact that I can do this stuff. But nobody told me to do it. I just...discovered it…it’s almost a blessing!

I don't know guys. I love coming here. Even though I've never really been here enough to REALLY get connected with some of the cool groupies and understand where all these fads or contests start. But I always enjoy all the inspiration and all the literate talent and all the hilarious humor and all the crazy stories and all the inside jokes that I don't understand...I really love this place for some strange reason.

I don't wanna feel bad about coming back here. I've had some serious thoughts about becoming a forum helper of some kind. Like take this seriously like a job almost. And then start making MORE cool stuff! Like I feel SO motivated to create stuff when I browse this forum. It's crazy!

I'M CRAZY!

But again...I don't know.

I've kind of wanted to open this up to almost...I guess...a discussion. About whether if I'm being mature or immature about visiting this website. What do you all think?