18:50 CDT, 29 Jun 2007.

That's post time.

Okay, clarification: Post here stands for Power-On Self Test. It's a series of internal checks that happen when a system is powered up, before anything comes on screen. For a system to successfully post in this sense means that the hardware is cooperating with itself and the computer turns on.

Well, my computer posted on the first try. Yay.

HOWEVER, the RJ-45 (network) ports aren't working to let me connect to the internet. I don't know if it's a problem with my cable internet, or if it's the ethernet jacks on the motherboard itself. I don't want to find out now that I've had a partially dead board all this time. Really.

Because of that, this entry is being typed on the old computer.

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I'm being pushed out of my comfort zone right now.

A week after the fact, I'm starting to grasp what I actually said to Amanda. NO, I'm NOT backing out of what I said: it's just taken this long for me to wrap my head around it, around what change I would be effecting in her life.

See, it's one thing for me to experiment with my own life. It's another thing entirely to experiment with someone else. I was worried about this before driving to Monroe, and it has revisited. Whichever way it goes, it promises to be humbling to get out of the way.

It's like I want to help, but what happens if I screw up? More than myself is hurt if that happens.

What's more, I may be transferred at work. Still working out of the same Louisiana office, but moved to be a representative, for lack of a better term, at the Yenni building (the main parish government building on the East Bank of Jefferson Parish). I confess, I've gotten comfortable in my office in Kenner. Probably too comfortable.

I went in saying I could be flexible. I need to remember that.

So yeah, that's where I am right now.

-KIE, who wouldn't wish what happened to Rayg on anyone but those that perpetrated the crime.