Ugh...

For those of you who read my blog, which I doubt there are any of(which makes me wonder why I'm posting this...), the reason for me not really being on for the last few days is that I've just plain felt tired for the last week or so. That, and I haven't really been motivated to do much of anything. At all. So yeah, you know...

Anyway, about those people I mentioned before with severe injuries... the older of the two got something called "Congestive Heart Failure", it's a problem where the lungs begin to fill with fluid, which can cause heart failure if not kept in check.(This is not the same person who had a lung collapse on him, mind you.) He had to be put on oxygen and everything. At least he's not in the hospital, though.

Please pray for him.

The one who had a lung collapse on him, however, is doing much better to my knowledge(Though I haven't seen him since before the incident). I know he's gotten well enough to be going back to school and whatnot, but besides that, I don't know that much about how he's been doing since. I'm guessing he's alright, though.

Other than that, life hasn't been too bad. Just not great or anything. As in depressingly boring...

Oh, and I feel sick at my stomach all the time, now...

I've also worked on that self-character MoC's colorscheme. It's really only black/silver now...

Anyway, there's something important I need to get to:

I'm sleeping at a normal time again, yet it feels painfully unnatural. I mean, It's like my body has become physiologically nocturnal now in the most literal manner. It's strange. As in I feel tired when it's bright, and awake when it's dark. Not to mention how my eyes seem to have adjusted to dark environments, and have become rather photosensitive. Come to think of it it's not just strange, it's disturbing. I feel comfortable in the dark, and uneasy when it's bright.

And I've been so tired when I actually am up, that I just can't remember to do anything. I can't remember to go outside during the day, especially at this time of year when it's still cold and comfortable, nor can I remember to get on the computer, or anything. It's like only when it's a couple of hours until I go to bed, am I actually awake enough to actually do something; to think; to live. I strain just to do anything at all for the entire length of the day almost because I'm so tired.

It's tearing me apart.

-Gakurak