Looking at the laptop screen at 1am at night, I was wondering why on earth was I going to such extremes for my results.

The exam results were released by email on Wednesday, but it seemed like everyone else had the same idea as I to start logging into their account at the stroke of 12.

And hence I was still trying to log in at 1 in the morning.

But, truth be told, I was nervous. Dead nervous. I recalled my lecturers taking me aside and telling me that either, 1) My performance was up to par with my standards, or 2) My performance was below par.

That got me nervous. Really nervous.

Through this year of schoolwork, it had been tough for me to keep up to my standards. The work got harder - I mean, avant garde music in three weeks from your own recordings is not fun to sit through - and more tedious.

So, I reasoned with myself, I had full good reason to sit in front of a glaring screen at 1 in the morning.

When I finally logged into the clogged Live Mail servers, I found the email waiting for me.

I was scared. I clicked on it.

I got a good - and bad - fright.

Semestral GPA: 3.913

Cumulative GPA: 3.929

The good - I was still in my range of 3.9. That is a lot to be thankful for.

The bad - my overall grade has depreciated. It's minimal, but it's still a risk that my position in class would be on the edge.

The nerves calmed down quick enough, and I scanned the details of my score.

I found my first B inside there. A B - for my business of music module. I don't know what to say for that one, but that I'll never be a businesswoman after looking at that grade. The music industry is, after all, on tension ever since the fiascos of music artistes going online instead of signing up with companies.

But, I am thankful for the other subjects - 3 As and 3 distinctions. It's more than I could ask for.

So, at 2am, I turned in to sleep. So today, I'm zonked out at work.