If BZP had mirrors, my reflection would not show the avatar of Gali that you all know. The avatar itself was merely requested from Bioni-Cool Mech because I wanted to be cool. I wanted to stand out and get a trademark. I want...Popularity. With that comes a thirst for power.
The hunger for power has, for the longest time, been mainly seen as a desire to take over a country, although it can mean something else. We hold these truths to be self evident that all men are created equal, but the desires of power make you want to be more than everyone else.
That's what I do on BZP. In the back of my mind, I just want power here on BZP. It's almost as if it's a new obsession. I want to be a big shot, someone like Zeddy or Zahd. That's who I truly am underneath, despite my polite and well thought out posts. Heck, this greed is one of the reasons I wrote long posts in the first place: to make me look smarter and to draw attention to the post, and therefore me. BZPower also provided RPGs, and although I enjoy writing, there's still, in the back of my head, the desire to impress everybody and to show off. So many of my posts around the forums were probably for the sake of rising my post count in order to improve my image. I suppose a lot of other people will post for that purpose too, but it doesn't make me feel any better. It feels as if everything I do here on this site is for my own gain. Just about the only time I ever do anything that is purely for constructive cause is when I start a topic, which are usually base off of questions which I've had floating around in my head for a while.
I haven't lived up to EmperorWhenua. Instead of giving respect, I seem to be demanding it from others. It's not right.
If BZPower had mirrors, my reflection would show up as Hafu, not Gali.
Your Honor,
Emperor Kraggh
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