...They have to deal with school and their social life.

I have to deal with school and a lack thereof.

It seems that with every passing moment, I get further and further from the people I used to call my friends, and closer and closer to complete and total loneliness.

It's not like the school I go to helps either. I go to a school for kids with "problems." By "problems," I mean violence, drugs, you name it. This school goes from middle school to high school. I used to have some problems that I pretty much am in control of now. They were the worst during the summer following my seventh grade year, and thus I have been at my current school ever since.

So basically, I knew my "friends" from 3rd to 7th grade, and then POOF! we all started drifting apart. If you are up for anologies, it was like a meteor hit the crust of our friendship, but I was the only one that broke off and started moving away.

But yeah, my school doesn't have anything social. No sports teams, no proms, not even a simple party. And I mean, these kids, even if they did have proms and stuff, would probably be doing all kinds of drugs and whatnot, and I'm not down with that.

I see my friends sometimes at my church (I can say that, right? It's a location.). It's always, "Hi john" or "how are you john?". If you really cared how I was, you would have called me a couple times or something.

I'm coming to realize that I can't just sit at a computer all day like I was directly plugged into the CPU. I need a social life. The more I realize that, the more depressed I get.

I want a friend that I can count on when I need help.

I want a friend who will look up to me and who I can help.

I want a friend who encourages the rest of us to do stupid stuff just for the heck of it.

I want a friend who has troubles with his family and that the rest of us could help.

I want a friend who can be a computer whiz and who can program just about anything.

I want friends who are kind to me, and thus I show mutual respect to them.

And I want these friends to never leave my side no matter what kind of hardship that we as a group or we as individuals go through.

But alas, for me, this is all just a hope, a wish, an intangible dream. I am seemingly doomed to a lifetime of solitude.

~Giganuva Upsilon