I'll start off this blog post with a big thank you to all you guys who have voiced their support for me during his crazy period of life I am lovingly dubbing my 'Second Adolescence'. Cookies and full-tackle glomps for Tesseract and Blog-keeper Valenti for being representative of said support.

A little update is in order, of course.

Since my last posting, I've steadily started getting better, and I hit my stride earlier this past week. It's safe to say at that point I was finally getting back on my feet and cutting loose this immature and emo side of myself that has been holding me back all these years. I'm starting to make major progress with a little business I'm growing on the side, I've applied for a few hourly jobs and awaiting responses from potential employers. In a nutshell, I'm finally starting to ease away (albeit more than a little painfully) from familial support.

Great news, but I'm nowhere near a happy ending yet, kids.

I was in conversation with my clan the other night, and I pretty much set myself up for a serious mental faceplant just by letting them in on what I was doing. Now, what exactly happened at the discussion table is obviously personal material that I will not post on a public blog, but what I -can- tell you is the fact that conversation left me back at square one: in doubt, confused, and having no direction to turn and run to. ... Bloody maddening.

What say you, guys?

Should I keep walking this painful path of separation and heed the point of view of my business? ((The business says the clan is controlling me and forcing me to choose a certain path instead of chasing my dreams.))

--Or --

Should I stay with the clan and heed their point of view? ((The clan says the business is turning me against them and is really trying to turn me into another cog in the machine.))

In my mind, they are both right and they are both wrong. If I could, I'd make both the clan and the business work together for me. But at this point, the clan and the business hate each other, and it hurts me to drop one or the other.

Anyways, I've got me another crazy week ahead of me, kids. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers if possible. I'd love to come back to you kids with the same impact I had in what feels like ages ago.

-Mout