Rants And Explanations
This is not a "story" entry. Just some points I wish to address about Amanda. Also rant on things relating to the subject.
So. This entire thing has been going on for about 8 1/2 months. This is really pathetic. It should have been done, at the most, one week after it started! Sorry. Self pity is very bad for your health.
Why. That is the question (No Shakespeare quote intended). I'm… not really afraid. I'm just--- I plan things out, and imagine how they would play out. But when the moment comes, it feels like there a wall between us. Where neither of us can do anything. Occasionally there will be a small hole in that wall. But then quickly sealed by the cement called fear. Nervousness.
All of the times I've spoke to her so far, have had… err, not bad consequences.
This why I need real advice. Not just "Go up and talk to her, it's not that hard!"
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We've already gone down that road. I'm afraid because I really like her. In which leads me to my next topic: average middle school relationships.
(This info regards almost 65% - 79% of middle school boys. Based on years of experience and seeing things taking place.) Obviously Biohero Codrex doesn't count. Anyway, when a boy likes a girl this is what their general idea of what they will do together. "Give "cute" comments together and Make out ( )".
This is what they say (or a variation of this): "You're hot! Will you go out with me?" (Please. Someone with a knowledge of school slang, tell me what "go out" actually means?)
Frigging morons. Even I know that's really blunt and stupid.
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I actually really like Amanda. A lot. Not, definitely not even one thousand miles close attracted to her… the other way. She's just… very pretty… to me. Even though we've never met each other, I feel like we already know each other. It's weird. That is why I'm devoting my time to this. I really like her.
My idea what would happened if she does like me and wants to start over is this. We will slowly become friends and hang out with each other's friends. Possibly start going to each other's houses. I take her some places (maybe) until that moment when…
I think you should like a person for who they are and how you are alike. Not all on looks.
My question is as stated above. Please help me my friends.
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