Hello and thank you for reading this Blog Entry.

When I first joined BZPower, I sought it as a way to help me cope through the constant bickering between my parents. Believe me, it worked. So I kept using the site through the years and have grown to love it. Unfortunately, BZPower has become the problem now instead of the solution. It is now the year 2009 and too much of my time is spent here.

So, I've decided to take a short leave for a month or so before I feel like I can exist without this site.

I have a bunch of different things that I aim to do before I leave: Finish the redoing of my room, improve school, and most importantly reconcile with my mother.

The first of those is the least difficult. My bed has already been moved, I need to clean my floor, clean up my MOCing station, clean the closet for my bin of LEGO SYSTEM parts, move the mini-fridge up there from the garage ( B) ), and install some shelving units.

THe second is a bit harder. School had never been my strong suit because of the office feel. I normally like to do my schoolwork on the back porch in the fall or spring or my the fire during the winter. However, most of my time is spent on the computer instead of my school books.

The last of those remains to be the biggest of my overall problems. During the time I'm not spending in my room or in my school books will be sitting outside in deep meditation and thought on how to best handle the situation.

My current solution can be called a chemotherapy or double-edged sword; I've stopped all visitation with her to let wounds heal but also deprived myself of half of me, which is never a good thing to do.

I'll admit, she's never been a loving mother and I've never been the best son but I hope to try and salvage our relationship. That is to say, if she wants me as her son anymore.

My previous attempts to regain her as my mother have been directly futile and unfortunatly I have to wait until she realizes that her hate for my father has grown so rampant that my sister and I have been permanatly scarred from the experience instead of blowing us off like the selfish person she is; a real-life Cinderella story.

For example, if I were to live with her instead of my father, I would be sitting in a "Juvenille Reform School" for the rest of my teenage years because I still loved my father.

But I digress.

So, a month's leave from BZPower. I will continue to use the site for about three days. Sunday will be the last for a while.

If you wish to contact me during my leave, I'll be using IM sites. My AIM is TDWP1993 and my Yahoo! is TDWP_1993.