Just thinking about what I'm going to write in this entry is making my hands shake.

So I went to a party on saturday, right? Well, there, Carinne and I got into a sort of disagreement (read: I screwed something up, I admit). Well, she said after the party that we should take a break from each other for a while and that she needed time to think things over, so I told her to take her time and that I'd wait.

Well today after homeroom in school she went up to me and said that she didn't want to be my girlfriend if I was going to do that again, and that we should just be friends. So of course I misinterpreted that as a "We're through for good, but we can still be friends if you want." I definitely don't think that'd work out, so I said something along the lines of "Sure, whatever." and went to class.

So then I was a miserable emo kid for all of my friends and just ignored most of them, making a few annoyed I'm sure. But I also realized just how awesome some of my friends are when they got to me in gym and I put aside the emo pretense.

So at the end of the day I went to talk to her before we left. Basically to ask her to give me another chance, to ask to give things another shot. She said not immediately, but that she definitely doesn't want us to separate completely, and I'm not sure that that was what she had meant when I talked to her earlier. She still wants to talk to me, and she doesn't want us to throw out all of what we've done so far, so that's a relief...

The thing to do now is regain her trust. While still letting her feel like she has space. This will be fun. It's a mission now.

I wonder if I missed anything...

And before you ask I didn't cheat on her. I would never do that.