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is rockin' my socks. I have a decent car and job. Life is good. Another semester of school starts Tuesday. Hello, 2011. Time for a new color. ©1984-2011 Toaraga EAM
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I signed an apartment lease, and I move in at the start of the new year. Also, I have my own car (not for my birthday, as I already bought it before today). ©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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Freedom! So many things, so many ways to take that. ©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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This photo was taken in the long ago month of July. I made that specially for BrickFair... and for any other event someone wants to take it to (spread the BZP love). Also, new spinny for me. ©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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So that data entry job I had was temporary (if they need me again, they'll call me). But fear not, for I have procured another profession, this one of a full time nature. I'm going to be working in a bank at night (it's kind of complicated to explain what exactly I'll be doing). This coincides well with my schedule, and since I don't start for about 2-3 weeks, it allows me to deal with a fast-paced online class before then. Woot! Life's been a bit crazy lately, but things are looking up right now. ©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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So I got back from Hungary this past Sunday (I wanna go back), and I basically hit the ground running almost non-stop. One task after another. Haha. I went to lunch with a friend of mine yesterday to talk about some stuff, and he ended up getting me a job doing data entry for another company that shares office space with his. Now that's the kind of friend everyone should have. It's not a lasting job at the moment, due to being based on a current project, but things could pick up. I wasn't even meeting him to look for a job initially (though I did need something new). Also, I switched my major and should be graduating with something this coming May, if everything works out. I've been doing this meandering thing for too long now, so it's time to buckle down and get serious... well, more serious than I already had been getting. ©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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So I just got back from this thing called "road trip." I traveled from Texas to New Jersey and spent time there for about a week (train trip to Philadelphia one day). Now I've got to get ready for a trip overseas that leaves Friday. It's a crazy busy summer. ©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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So that "top secret" trip I mentioned was to meet Black Six on my way to New Jersey. That is some pretty nifty stuff he has, let me tell you. So now I've met 2 BZPower members. ©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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I'm crossing state lines this week that I've never crossed before. States I've been in at some point in my life: AlabamaArkansasFloridaLouisianaMississippiOklahomaTennesseeTexas©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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Saturday was officially my last day as a Toys 'R Us employee (unless I go back later): December 11, 2008 - July 10, 2010. Now you may ask why I quit my job (or maybe you don't care), but rest assured, I had good reasons. No, I was not malcontent or hateful of my job (though I had off-days, same as anyone else), but I had reasons for leaving my job of nearly 19 months. The main reason was so that I would be able to travel. I've already mentioned the missions trip to Hungary... which is still floating around the exterior of my blog. Besides that, I'm also going on another trip that only a few people who don't know me in person know about; in fact, I'm heading out this week (Tuesday morning) on that top secret, hush-hush trip that perhaps I'll talk about upon my return. It's not really a top secret trip, but part of it I'm going to leave as unknown for now, so it sounds mysterious and stuff. Let's just say, someone else will be very happy... well, at least mildly ecstatic. ©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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Nutshell: It's a symphonic experience with video game visuals. I saw it presented by Dallas Symphony. It was spectacular. ©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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Have you filed yours, if you live in the US? ©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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I'm going on a trip to (country) Hungary to visit some (noun) hippos. They don't like it when you (verb) smell at them with funny looks. The eat (plant) palm trees and spend a lot of time in (liquid) ice tea. I hope to (verb) kiss the (noun) squirrel while I am there. ~Sha la-la-la-la-la My, oh, my~ ©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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<-- That's where I'm going. If you can't figure out the clues, I'll put the real flag before the end of the contest, if I don't forget. ©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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No really, guess. This summer I'm planning to go somewhere I've never been, and I am excited. Maybe I'll theme my blog around where I'm going and enter the contest. ©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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The future looks brighter every day. And summer is but months away. Haha, random poetic moment. Anyway I'm so full of amazement and excitement for this year, but there are so many distractions to getting things accomplished, things I couldn't quite finish when Christmastime was around. I'm trying to force myself to focus on what's really important to me. (I'm still kind of figuring that out.) I'm looking forward to summer, not because school is out (though an added bonus I assure you), but so much more than that is planned. I guess I'll have to wait to see what transpires between now and then. I did say 2010 was going to be better than 2009 to me personally, and it's shaping up that way, in spite of the obstacles. Also, I made an 88 on my algebra exam from Monday. Considering that's not my strong point, I'm really happy about that. I remember numbers, not formulas... I've memorized so many personal numbers (ones pertaining to identification, etc.) over the years, it's insane. I even used to be able to remember phone numbers so easily, but with speed dial and people getting new phones/numbers so often, that kind of became a semi-active trait. Summer can't come soon enough, but soon enough, the spring will pass too. Life is so short. Here's to the future! ©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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Let me say this right off the bat. I am a Christian, yet I have struggled with depression. No matter who you are, depression is never a fun thing to go through. This is not something I like to broadcast, but I do like to help people. I prefer to do behind-the-scenes stuff with little or no attention on myself. I'm terrible at spearheading projects from scratch, since that's not how my thinking works, but I do like to help people when I see a need. The problem with helping people is that sometimes others will take advantage of that generosity, especially if you're not a person who can easily say no. I did stuff for people, not because I was the best person for the job, but because I didn't know how to say no to helping out and am willing to try. Yes, I like to help, but I don't like to feel manipulated into helping. For who knows how long, I was doing things that may or may not have been important but feeling miserable and pretty much questioning my self-worth and what I was doing in the real world; I didn't find much enjoyment in a lot of what I did. I even quit giving it my all eventually because I didn't see the point or feel a reason. I did not realize what was happening in my life; all I knew was something was not right, but I didn't know anyone I could really share my problems with, since I didn't trust people. I proved myself to be trustworthy, but I was hesitant about trusting anyone else. I didn't know who I could talk to that cared about and really knew me, and being the introvert that I am, I learned a long time ago how to keep my emotions and thoughts to myself; so often I didn't even think deeply about what I was doing with my life. I was just going through the motions of day-to-day and week-to-week living. So what does this have to do with BZPower? I'm going to admit it. BZPower was one of my escapes; it was how I coped with the real world because I didn't know how to face my problems. I felt disrespected, ignored, or used by too many people I had once trusted: family and friends alike, people I grew up with or who watched me grow up, but on here I had developed respect, friendships, and a sense of belonging from people I have never even met. I felt more welcomed here than in the real world. What I did here was contributive, and my opinions were valued; I had even worked my way up the ranks of the staff. People "listened" to what I had to say. Through some events that began in 2008 at least (maybe before, but I didn't notice), my life began to turn around for the better. One event in particular caused my focus to shift, and I began to make changes in my life. As I was going through these changes, my faith began to be rekindled; I never lost my faith, but it had been weak. I even made new friends over the summer, and I started to really enjoy life outside the Internet and video games... things I once used as an escape. These things just didn't feel worth my time as much. As great as my position at BZPower was and as wonderful as the staff was during my time, my heart wasn't in it anymore, and dealing with moderating was adding to stress I was still dealing with; besides, Christmastime was rolling around, so I knew I was going to be extremely busy with work anyway. Now don't get the wrong idea. BZPower was neither a cause nor an effect of what I went through; it didn't cause me to be depressed, and I wasn't here just because I was depressed. In fact, it was a great asset in my life. I've gotten to know some wonderful people and even had an excuse to travel last summer, an event that's really made me want to travel more than I already did. It's something that allowed me to really try what I might not have otherwise done. As I was able to open up with my problems to someone I found I could trust and even took a serious look at my life, I saw the misery I had been through for what it was. I can't say for sure when I really knew I had been going through depression, but I know it was during recent months that I figured it out. Just before Thanksgiving, I was even able to write something for the first time to tell friends and family what I had been through, to confront a part of me that I had learned a long time ago how to keep hidden. Check this out. I never used any kind of medication to deal with depression (honestly, I'm not sure I would recommend any, since the side effects sound worse than helpful). If something is seriously bothering you, don't be afraid to deal with it. If you're going through depression, find a way to talk about what is bothering you. You might also need to get your focus shifted because your priorities are probably wrong. I'm not going to lie and say I never get sad or feel down anymore, but now that I'm aware of what I went through, I can better sense when something is going to pull me down. I also find myself wanting to be more optimistic and encouraging... I've think I've always been an optimist at heart, but I was surrounded by pessimistic people for years. This is why 2009 was the best year of my life. ©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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It's a new year already? When did that happen, and why did nobody inform me that 2005 was over? ©1984-2010 Toaraga EAM
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Nothing. Honestly. I asked for nothing for my birthday (two days ago) or Christmas. I've learned to be somewhat content with what I have acquired; I'm learning to be more thankful and appreciative for what I've probably taken for granted. I actually don't need any gifts right now. Sure there are things I'd like to own at some point, but for now, I'm good with what I have. If you only knew me, you'd probably understand better. ©1984-2009 Toaraga EAM
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Insurance rates decrease. Woohoo! Oh no, I'm getting old if that's the high point of my life. ©1984-2009 Toaraga EAM
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I still work at Toys 'R Us, and I'm thankful for it. ©1984-2009 Toaraga EAM
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Can be so tiring sometimes, especially my job at this time of year. ©1984-2009 Toaraga EAM
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So it is. And the generation that lived it is dying out. Such is how life goes, yet we pause to reflect on what has gone before. ©1984-2009 Toaraga EAM
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I'm alive. Hey, it's pretty exciting to me. ©1984-2009 Toaraga EAM
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So what are you thankful for? Personally, I'm thankful for some stuff I've been working through over the past year and the new friends I've made. ©1984-2009 Toaraga EAM
