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Revelations and Truths

Voxumo

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*wipes some dust off of his gloves and smirks*

So after being temporarily banned for week I am intrigued to see what I have missed... 41 notifications popping up only has me mildly worried. Yet you know perhaps what I am looking forward to the most? Not giving a care in the world.

 

See I am sure that when you are banned or temporarily banned people will look at you differently. Their image of you may have been tainted and now they think negatively of you. And you know what I have to say to that? I don't give a flying mahi what people think of me. I am not here to prove myself to Bzpower nor am I here for a popularity contest. Considering this is really the first time I went off the deep end in my entire time on Bzpower which is about 7 years now I have to say I am doing a fantastic job. Never before have I been punished for anything on here nor have come close to being punished. So you know you can take your opinions of me and keep them to yourself.

 

Afterall one does not spend 4 years in two separate mental institutions and not learn to ignore the opinions of people.

 

Oh yeah did I never tell you all this. You will notice that from about june 2008 to april 1st 2010 that i was basically non-existent on bzpower.. That would be because those almost two years I was in a institution for legitimate mental issues and anger management issues. The other two years were spent in Wisconsin from sometime in 2003 to mid 2005. So yeah I have had a bumpy existence. Considering most said i would be locked up permanently and that I would never finish school I have one thing to say to those people 'I'm out and about and have a high-school diploma and graduated with a gpa of 3.9. I was valedictorian of my class (Yeah the class was only like 15 people but still). I would like to think I have succeeded where many thought I would either have failed or would be dead at my own hands. To those people who doubted HA!'

 

It feels good to rant like this and just get this out on the table. Am I ashamed to have P.D.D and schizophrenic tendencies? Not in the slightest because I am proof that just if a person has a mental disorder they can succeed at life.

 

And while i am not sure if there are parts of this that may or may not get it removed i am willing to take that risk Partly because i am not sure which parts those would be. However if there are parts sorry in advance.

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Voxumo

*upvotes post because Voxumo is mortally awesome*

*upvotes post for no good reason besides it's you*

But really it is not that awesome. Just trying to live a life when many did not think i would be here today.

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fishers64

But really it is not that awesome. Just trying to live a life when many did not think i would be here today.

It's still an achievement, though. :) Reading your posts on the board, I wouldn't know what you just said.

 

That counts for a whole lot.

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Voxumo

 

But really it is not that awesome. Just trying to live a life when many did not think i would be here today.

It's still an achievement, though. :) Reading your posts on the board, I wouldn't know what you just said.

 

That counts for a whole lot.

 

this is something I hear alot. Most people tell me they would never know I had anger issues from how i am able to speak and conduct myself on the internet yet in the past I used to just get physically aggressive at the snap of the finger. I have seen my fair share of PRTs (Physical Restraint Techniques) and let me tell you having two to three grown men slam you against the wall, pulling your arms behind your back hurts like a son of a makuta, Yet i don't hate them for that because it was their job. I was a threat to those around me they ha to do what they had to do.

 

But none the less I deter from my point. I have learned quite well to put up a front. That is why most people never know or realize what I told in the entry above.

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fishers64

Well, yeah, it's the internet. It's easy to hide your problems and make yourself seem more amazing than you really are. *lamblasts self for falling for it*

 

In any case, I admire you for owning up to it. :shrugs: I think I remember you saying some of this before, but recent circumstances didn't tap the memory. :shrugs:

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Voxumo

*smirks* Well I don't think you really need to lamblast yourself. See I try not to make myself more amazing than I am. Heck just ealier yesterday I was doing a sprite *makes note to self to show some of his sprite work on blog* and the person told me they were surprised they weren't already watching me.

 

This was the actual conversation

Person: Thankies for the watch :3 I'm surprised I wasn't watching you before!

 

Me: lol I am one of those folks who just skim under the radar. *Slithers away through the tall grass* Also thank you for the watch now.

 

I slid under that radar like it was a limbo pole.

 

And you know the best thing about this... My social skills in real life suck... They suck so bad. Yet on here I found I can talk freely and yet It has actually helped my real life social skills. Especially ever since I started playing a MUD called The Inquisition: Legacy.

 

So yeah this helps me alot to better myself.

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Makuta of Time

So that explains why i haven't a drop from you in a week. You should really look at the Hitman Topic man. I made a side show comedy starring Voltex and having him make jokes of people. (Fell asleep before I could post this)

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Voxumo

So that explains why i haven't a drop from you in a week. You should really look at the Hitman Topic man. I made a side show comedy starring Voltex and having him make jokes of people. (Fell asleep before I could post this)

I already did read through it.. Though I died the second day/round so yeah wasn't super concerned

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