There has been so many changes in my life, myself changing, finally now knowing what to do with myself and finding my self motivation and purpose. Where to begin and start this entry, I do not even know, so I am just going to roll with it as I write this entry.

First off, myself.

I've changed significantly since Becca's death. But not in a bad way, in a way that is so astonishing that I can't even describe it. After I've came to terms with what happened, I didn't become moody, or cold hearted, or even depressed. It was hard to get over but by no means did it effect me in a negative way. Instead, I found myself becoming more spiritual, more at peace than ever, I don't know why or how I came to be like that, I just did. I didn't let one devastating thing in my life ruin me, instead, I embraced it and took it as a lesson. Now I am supporting others in dire need whenever something in their life goes wrong, to help show that there are people, like myself, who are good, and not corrupted by greed or desire. Life isn't about your own personal self, its about what you do to help make this world a better place. A good place. Its not easy, seeing that there is so much wrong in this world we live in, but there is always hope for good, and maybe one day, people will start realizing that its not just about yourself, its about everyone around you in your life and what you can do to make your mark.

Secondly, whats been going on with me.

What more can I say other than first off, I am still working. But I just view it as a time killing job until I get my opportunity to do the next great thing in life. I am not sure when that moment will come, but it will soon. Until then though, I will just do what I've been doing. Help others, expect nothing in return.

Now for my love life, well, it had a rocky start. So many different things going on with it that I can't even begin explaining it. But now I am doing good with it, although I never expected or ever saw it happening that I would be dating my friend Miranda, whom I've been good friends with for 4 years. Its smooth, things moving slowly, but very good. I am happy. No reason to complain about anything with that. As far as anything else goes, nothing else real interesting has happened in my life. Amazing how in 3 months, nothing happens. But then again, I avoid drama like the plague. No point in it, people just get hurt and its a waste of time in which people should be striving to do something better with themselves rather than cutting down people for their own enjoyment.

Although, I am quite the concert goer now these days, and I do have a good metal show span that is coming up next month starting on the 29th. I am not just going to these concerts for my own enjoyment though, as fun as they are, I am going to learn, what it takes to put on a good show, to see my favorite bands bring the crowds to life. Its a learning experience because that is something I strongly hope to be one day. I will continue working for it, and not give up. I haven't given up on anything, even if I've had my back up against the wall, I always continue fighting for myself and others.

With all that said, I am glad to have finally found the time to get around to posting a new blog entry, it has been a very long time, and it'll be nice to hear from those who do read this blog. Catch up a bit on things, y'know? Just leave a comment or PM, I'll get back to it. See ya until next time.

~A Flawed Perfection/Mike~