So, to those of you who do check in on me from time to time, just letting you guys know that I will be awake for a week or two, hopefully no longer, while I get my internet set up into the apartment I am moving into. Time to go into this world to support myself. It will be fun, rooming with 2 good friends of mine. It will be a tough, but exciting experience. I shall post an entry upon my turn, but until then, see ya guys later.
There has been so many changes in my life, myself changing, finally now knowing what to do with myself and finding my self motivation and purpose. Where to begin and start this entry, I do not even know, so I am just going to roll with it as I write this entry.
First off, myself.
I've changed significantly since Becca's death. But not in a bad way, in a way that is so astonishing that I can't even describe it. After I've came to terms with what happened, I didn't become moody, or cold he
To those who keep up with my blog, I just want to let you all know that I am sorry for the decrease in activity. Reality has a grip on me quite tightly. I will try to update as often as possible. Thanks for the patience.
~Michael R.H. A Flawed Perfection~
Was a-freakin'-mazing. Disappointed that most bands had to have short sets, Killswitch included, due to Disturbed's almost 2 hour setlist, but the show was great. I got to meet KSE, have a picture taken with them and got my KSE shirt autographed by all members of the band, they are quite funny. My neck hurts, I am exhausted, and my body is sore from moshing. Loads of fun.
KSE Setlist
A Bid Farewell
Fixation on The Darkness
New Song
Rose of Sharyn
The Arms of Sorrow
My Curse
My Last S
I have to spend 1300 dollars to get my car fixed. Ouch. >_< Thats all the money I have. I will have spent over 2000 dollars on my car in worth of maintenance in the past month and a half. I got bad luck sometimes.
On Tuesday, March 31st, I will be gone to the Music As A Weapon Tour in Dallas, Texas, to see Disturbed, Killswitch Engage, Chimaira, Lacuna Coil, Suicide Silence, Spineshank, Crooked X, and Bury Your Dead.
Anyone else goin' to this show? Please state so, perhaps I will see you there.
Well, you know that saying that your past comes back to haunt you? Well, a big part of my past has come back, but I can't call it a haunting, just maybe a blessing in disguise.
Anyone who has followed this blog knows Christina. Anyways, she has re-entered my life, wanting to be part of it again. The truth came out as to why she broke up with me, why she came back, which all makes sense as to why she has come back to me.
She still loves me, she never stopped, and why she broke up with me is
Its been 8 days since I lost her. Eight long and lonely days.
But I know the longer I keep thinking about it, the harder it will be for me to let go. The sooner I let go, the better it will be for me in the long time. By no means is this easy, but I have always been the type of person to just keep fighting onward, can't slow down. Because I know that my life must go on, and that I have to savor every moment I have. Life is short. What we do with our life leaves a much longer lasting impressio
I dedicate this one to you Becca...I miss you. I wish you could come back...my heart always will be yours...
My Curse by Killswitch Engage
I watched you walk away
Hopeless, with nothing to say
I strain my eyes
Hoping to see you again
This is my curse (the longing)
This is my curse (time)
This is my curse (the yearning)
This is my curse
There is love burning to find you
Will you wait for me?
Will you be there?
Your silence haunts me
But I still hunger for you
This i
February 13th, 2009 will always hold its place with me.
Not because its a happy day, but because its a day of sorrow. Life for me is a journey of hardship and challenges, but I have been given the ultimate challenge, the ultimate hardship.
On this day, I lost the one person who meant everything to me. I feel so empty, alone, so hurt, that I am still in slight denial.
Becca, my lovely and amazing girlfriend, has passed onto the other side.
She made me promise that I would not harm m
Picking up from my last entry...
A Look Back: February 2008
So, the continuing struggle carries on into February, and that is when the reality of it kicked into me. Christina, was gone, my best friend, the one who person who actually got me and had always been there for me was gone. It felt like a part of me had literally died, who would I be able to count on to be there for me and talk to me and keep me calm.
I fell apart. I was depressed, angry, and I never slept. I would rare
Over the course of the next week or so, I will be putting up entries reflecting upon how that one year that only ended just a little over half a month ago. Tonight, I start with January.
January, the month of my birth.
Well, what can I say? I don't even remember the clock hitting midnight on New Year's Eve that officially started off 2008. By then I had already had my fair share to drink in celebration with my friends. All in all, it was an amazing way to start off my New Year, and I g
It is now officially my 19th birthday. 19 looong years, and to think, I have another 60-70 left. Anyways, I am off to bed, just had to stay awake till I saw myself go from 18 to 19. No change at all. Lol.
Peace.
~Da Mista Mike~
Not in the way I wanted it, but I will take it, as long as he will never be able to bother Becca again.
I hope he gets justice served to him while he wastes his life away in prison.
Congrats to my Texas Longhorns! What an amazing hard fought victory tonight. They put up nearly 500 yards of offense on a great Ohio State defense. There is no doubt that this team has a legit claim to be #1 when all is said and done for this season. Hook 'Em!!!!
So, it has been 6 days since the incident. Let me update on how things are now.
Becca, despite being beaten, tortured, raped, and then discovering she is pregnant from it all, is doing amazingly well. She has the smile back on her face and is back to being bubbly and happy. It took me quite the effort to bring her back, but it was well worth it to see her enjoying life again.
And all the while her friends are happy and glad she is fine and back to normal, they all ask me why I am not so
So, 2009 has started. Happy New Year everyone. Been a long time since I have blogged. I hope all of you had your New Year start off better than mine.
Anyways, not much worse could possibly happen this New Year. Its amazing, I am just amazed at how low our society has stooped. I've seen and been part of some pretty horrible things, but this is a new all time low that I have just seen.
Its sickening, that sums it up. Here I am, in a society that is in a free fall, and not a single person is
I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing by Aerosmith
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss
New blog name. A friend of mine suggested it (You all know him as Arch-Angel).
Kinda fitting, since that is how I basically live life, not living by everyone else's rules, just my own, walking my own path that follows my rules.
Of course, its more fun that way.
