February 13th, 2009 will always hold its place with me.

Not because its a happy day, but because its a day of sorrow. Life for me is a journey of hardship and challenges, but I have been given the ultimate challenge, the ultimate hardship.

On this day, I lost the one person who meant everything to me. I feel so empty, alone, so hurt, that I am still in slight denial.

Becca, my lovely and amazing girlfriend, has passed onto the other side.

She made me promise that I would not harm myself, so in her honor, I intend to keep it. As she promised me that she will wait for me until my time comes where we can be together again.

I am counting to that day, but I must live my life. But my heart will always belong to her.

I love her so much, so dearly, that I wish it would not have had to happen like this.

I miss you Becca, how I wish you could come back. We'll meet again though, no matter how long it may be.

R.A.L.H. <3

December 15th, 1990, through February 13th, 2009.

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you is to hold her when I am much too far away, like I am right now.