I'm losing it. I'm finally losing it. I thought college would be better. But it's not, it's really not. I'm overloaded with homework and I have to submit an essay in less than three hours and I'm just sitting here staring at a blank screen watching the little blinky thingy blink. I just can't do it. I can't. We have to write a 400 word paper on something I could describe within less than a paragraph. And my writing class is worse. I liked the hero's myth. Honestly, I did. But I just can't do this. This isn't writing. This is a fill in the blank puzzle where everythings blank. This is... ... I'm being told I'm doing it wrong because I need only one source, because there are no quotes in the movie that adequately fit my points. I'm here grasping for as many words I can possibly fit in this essay and it's showing. It's clunky, It's robotic and it's lifeless. And I'm hating it.

I hate the way writing is taught. It's all rules and how to write properly. It's all about how you're writing. It doesn't matter if you can get your point across more effectively another way because that's not right. And it's infuriating.

Writing is supposed to have feeling, to have character. It's supposed to make you want to read it. And You couldn't pay me to read my Writing essay and I feel bad for anyone who does.

No. Writing is filled with stories meant to get ideas across, to illustrate cleverly disguised philosophies riddled in a character's struggles.

I know I'm not a great writer, or even an adequate one. I have the spelling skills of a first grader and the only reason this is able to be read is the spell checker. But I have ideas that bounce around my head that I'd love to sketch out in a word document or sheet of paper, but I'm kind of sick of any form of writing at this point.

Time to go turn my brain off and write a paper...