idk if i'll ever regularly update this blog but here's an update:

- preordered Pokemon Alpha Sapphire and excited for it to come tomorrow (my friend already has his own copy, though he lives in Australia and it released there)

- preordered Dragon Age: Inquisition and my sister already has her copy of the game (she did digital download), and i'm waiting for my own copy to come in the mail 'cuz i like having the physical box and stuff (and it saves some space on my ps4's harddrive).

- playing Warlords of Draenor in World of Warcraft and having a lot of fun with the new expansion; really made me dig orcs and find their stories interesting. kinda started following the Draenor politics between the clans/Iron Horde and then started to read the orc quests on current day Azeroth to see where the story diverged with their allegiances and how the Iron Horde change will affect them (since some became demon cults, which might not be the case when most of the orcs in the expansion didn't drink the demon blood so curious about it). plus i mean -technically- there's two Burning Legions and two Sargerases now, and im kinda curious if Blizzard will do anything with that or stick to the "not even dealing with time doubles" position.

that's just it for games though

for other stuff it's mostly been like

- counseling, which is going well and i've been given numerous resources for what i need (mostly trans resources, like the address for the Gender Identity Center and some run downs of their programs, like, apparently, they have a sort of mentor program where someone from their organization will go to stores with you and help you find clothes in your size and stuff so you don't have to do it alone... i like the idea and maybe ill make use of it sometime down the line, but with my social anxiety disorder and generalized anxiety disorder it's not really easy for me to do that).

- went to a trans discussion group today in the glbt center of my university, after seeing some of their transgender remembrance ceremony (which i didn't attend in full since i get really emotional really easily and didn't want to end up in tears), but after i was able to look at some books and someone from their group took a couple pictures of me which i didnt mind (they asked permission and stuff). but everyone there seemed pretty nice, i didn't say a word even when the group went 1hr over time due to my anxiety problems (i stutter heavily, or blank, or kinda cant' physically move my lips -- it's sort of a mess).

- one of my professors said my writing's incredible and is giving me a lot of leeway with page numbers (as in i dont have to write a 3-4 page paper so long as i can cover everything, be it less than 3-4 pages or longer). it kinda means something since she's also one of the English professors and works in the English department alongside the Women and Gender studies programs, and teaches some of the higher level English courses at the university. idk, it felt nice to be complimented (and tbh all my papers submitted in my comp II course rarely come back with much more than a "you used a comma splice here" or "you used a passive voice here" and it's usually only one or two of those per paper, if that (rest is usually sections underlined with compliments, which still kinda surprises me).

- next semester i want to take a creative writing course, since that would actually really help me with what i want to do by the end of next year (apply for an internship). mostly, Blizzard Entertainment (the people who made World of Warcraft, Diablo, Overwatch, Starcraft, etc...) have an internship program for college students every year, as in the deadline's December to apply and you need in depth knowledge of WoW's lore (thus my playing it and reading books), on top of a portfolio of creative works to submit (which is why im not applying this year, since i haven't done a lot of creative works i'm proud of since most of them were impulse writing). kinda starting with my creative short story for my final project in my Women and Gender studies course.

- thinking to minor in Women and Gender studies and major in English (probably still an emphasis on education? in case i can't get a creative writing job it'd be nice to be able to fall back on the teaching idea).