~ Smiling Through The Pain ~
So I recently lost a sister to the deadly grasp of college, and since then I've been depressed and pushing away from people. But I thought that I might let you all in on something that I've been keeping in the dark for a while.
I love being in a relationship, treating a girl with love and affection, and being loved back. So way back in Feb. I asked this girl to be my girlfriend on Valentine's Day, and she said yes. About two weeks later she wanted to break up with me because people were telling me stuff I was asking her but that she wasn't telling me. After that I had one other girlfriend, who had used me for the sake of saying that she had a boyfriend. It's been about three or four months since I've had a girlfriend now, and I've been on and off depressed. I had a lot of friends before that I was confiding all of this in, but it became so overwhelming and I became so depressed that they wanted nothing to do with me and all pushed away from me, pushing me further into depression. I didn't do anything drastic, but I was very alone. The last remaining friends of mine were starting to spend less time with me and more time with their boyfriends and girlfriends and their other friends. As of right now, I have about three friends who I can really talk to. Other than that, I feel totally alone. And the worst part is that I've longed for a loving relationship and I haven't been able to get one. And it's been pushing me further into depression everyday. And was friends with a lot of girls, but then someone started a rumor that the only reason I did that was for... *ahem* ...yeah. Which was not ture, I just think that a lot of guys are rude and stuff and that girls are more caring and more understanding. So now everything's shot me right down.
If you're a square because you are professional, then if you're not professional would you be called a circle? And in that case, which is better?
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