I've faced this question with my mom plenty of times.

"Why do you have a blog? Can't you have a journal? Diary?"

Thats tough to answer. Not because I have don't have an answer, but because it's complicated and emotional.

Before I was going to type my first blog entry, I looked over other blogs. A lot of it is freedom of expression.

And by that, I mean randomness. Exo and Spitty being the two front-runners. In my mind, they are the unoffical comedians of this enormous forum. Its amazing how I much I chuckle at their jokes as they see one thing, make it a joke the next. I remember after Chii made a topic sparking a huge flame war with him just dominating the members in the arguement using their own fire. It, of course, was closed. I go Chii's profile, I laugh with him. Then I see at the bottom where Exo commented:

THEY SEE ME TROLLIN

THEY HATIN...

Could stop laughing.

Another thing I saw were discussions on the sets and storyline. Plenty talk, but not my cup of tea. Why? I grew out of it, and I don't even like Ice Tea for that matter.

Though I believe I saw one serious blog. I believe it was Lady Kopaka going on abot her life. A few comments, but I knew she was popular.

So I made a choice.

Either I make a blog on my life and the things that haunt it, or I decide to make others laugh.

I tried random. I wanted to become a popular member, like Exo and Spitty. I wanted to fit in, I wanted to make others laugh.

I couldn't feel it.

The words that I typed weren't real. They weren't who I am. They didn't say who I was, what I am, what I wanted to be, what I was, what I've done, what I saw, what I expericenced, what I felt, what I had to let out.

This is the outcome.

Hey, I may not be popular, but I sure felt better after that.

So to answer the question as to why I use a blog instead of a journal or a diary, is simple.

A journal and diaries are written thoughts only accessable to the world. A blog is a journal or a diary that is given to the world to read. To release thoughts. To say what can't be said.

Well, to me anyways.

~AA