I'm terribly moody in this recent period of time. Been thinking about a recent event that happened in the household of Kevin's that is related to my own.

His grandmother is in her last stages of lung cancer, like my own, but... her family isn't doing much good about it.

While my grandmother underwent treated care, his grandmother opted for pallative care. That's all right by me -

But when I heard that the family had dragged her out of her bedroom and made her stay in the unventilated living room, family crowded around her and waiting for her to die, I felt very strongly against it.

The family pre-empts her death, but this is too much - especially for Kevin's grandmother. She is suffering from (natural) dementia and can't separate hallucination from thought - when I visited her, she could not remember my name.

The questions quickly arose: What was the family thinking? I found out that they just want her to move on naturally - no matter what. However, 'naturally' meant withdrawing comfort and peace from her. I rather her moving on naturally - and peacefully. She's a wonderful woman who brought up many children, and doted on Kevin, her beloved grandson, the most. She liked me too. She held my arm and looked right at me when she was weak and unable to speak.

UPDATE:

This is what you get if you procrastinate on a blog post.

Kevin's grandmother passed away this afternoon - and I have no idea if it was a good or bad thing. Last I knew, she was gurgling from phlegm, even worse, liquid in her lungs.

I really hope it was a natural passing - cancer got to her - instead of her drowning and choking in her liquids.

What I do know now, though, that the above rant would be of little point to raise to others, but it still bugs me. It really still does bug me.

I can't help but think, 'If it had been my grandmother in that state, with my family doing that to her, would I join in, or would I keep rebelling and demand my grandmother have her say?'

It's time to bury the hatchet, but I haven't dropped it into its grave yet.

Haiz.