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Mourning


Schizo Kaita

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Man, this doesn't get any easier. Some of you already know this, but I just have to get it off my chest. Blog therapy or something, I guess. You may not have noticed any of this from my behaviour online, but I'm still in shock about it.

 

Anyway, this is pretty hard to talk about, but they say shared sorrow is lessened sorrow (at least that's what we say in Dutch), so I'm doing just that.

 

Last Sunday I received a phone call. It appeared that one of the 7-year-olds from our Scouting outfit fell ill and was diagnosed with Kawasaki disease, which can cause coronary artery aneurysms. Michiel died from one last Saturday.

 

I've known the kid for 2 years, he went camping with us and everything, and he was always joking and laughing... It's difficult to imagine I'll never see him again.

 

I spent all Sunday calling all my fellow Scouting troop leaders, and we called the other kids' parents this week to inform them. I just got off the phone with the last one. Everyone's shocked with grief, so it's difficult for everyone to cope. I can't imagine what his family is going through right now... My heart goes out to them, even if I can't do anything to ease their pain. I don't think anyone or anything can, it's the greatest of losses.

 

Going to the funeral on Saturday.

 

 

Yeah... Sorry about the depressing entry, but I had to get it off my chest.

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It's so shocking when one loses a close friend or family member, but it's best to think of all the good points such as all the fun stuff you did with him; keep negativity out of it. May he rest in piece.

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Well, of course it sucks when someone dies. Everyone should know he's in a better place now, and remember the good times, not the bad.

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I honestly know how you fell right now. Someone from my school died last week, he would have been a senior in high school like I'm going to be... It's so sad when anyone dies.

 

Kohaku

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Life's just too short. Seven years. Seven years of life. Seven years of life is still life.

 

The cicada sleeps for 17 years underground, and lives as an adult for 7 weeks. Those weeks are spent in a frenzy, looking for a mate so it can lay eggs, and then die.

 

Seven years, the last of which were spent laughing and joking and camping.

 

In a way, he'll never grow up. Never grow old, feel the pangs and hardships of older life. And that is in a sense both a mercy and a tragedy. He'll never get a job, get married, have children and grandchildren.

 

But then he lived out his seven years of life that he was given, and even though he'll miss all the rest of life, his life was still full and rich and his entire life was spent young and happy and free. And if you're going to die then still having the brightness and fire of youth in your heart at the very end is not a bad way.

 

I'm not saying that dying young is better. But no matter the duration, he was here, he had a life, and for seven years time he enriched the lives of those around him.

 

My eloquence fails me. There's no way to say what I want to say properly here.

 

I'm very sorry for your loss.

 

Life's too short. Live it up. No regrets.

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I just got back from the funeral.

 

Hard though it was to go, I'm glad I did. I think I can finally say goodbye now, even though he'll never be forgotten.

 

My fellow troop leaders were there as well, as were those children who knew him from school and Scouting.

 

It was a beautiful service, solemn. At the end, his father made a final speech. It's the bravest thing I've seen any man do.

 

He spoke of the joys and experiences of his son's young life. He said that, just like his son had been nervous about doing a speech on ostriches in class, he stood there now with knees shaking. The day before that class speech of his, he'd told us all about it at Scouting... I didn't know it was possible to smile at old memories and yet hurt so much inside at the same time.

 

I'm at least glad that we could all say our goodbyes together - I'd rather we hadn't had to do it at all, but there's nothing we can change about it. We'll go on without him, but still with him.

 

Thanks for the kind words, everyone.

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