(These are only some of the things that happened.)

During the past few weeks, I've felt rather apathetic about everything. BZPower, life to a certain degree, work, going back to college.. Even my love for BoA. All because of one person. My old 'boss' at the work rehab centre.

For the past three years, I've been working my butt off to get where I am today. The first coulpe of years were just dragging on, until bossman had to guide a trainee. In this last year, the trainee helped me. He really did. He did in one year what bossman was trying to accomplish in two.

I am grateful to the trainee, Cees, for that.

I think the bossman got rather... jealous of the trainee's achievement. When the trainee wasn't around, the bossman said some bad things about the trainee.

That's not the only thing.

In the last weeks before I finally left, the bossman became a prick. To put it bluntly.

He started to get on my neck if I came a few minutes late. He also got disrespectful when I went to the toilet during a break and I got off it a few minutes into the work times.

Also, there was this time where I was having trouble focusing on my work because it was very hot and I went to get some water. When I came back from the cantina, I was only gone for a minute, he was all mad about it.

He's also a hypocrite. Like, we can't say bad things or crack sexist and vulgar jokes. (Not that I'd want to.) But during the breaks, he tells the worst vulgar, sexist and sometimes even racist jokes.

And when I was feeling bad, as in pretty angry, he was the one who always pushed me over the edge by saying the things I didn't want to hear and by placing doubt in my mind. And at those moments, I really felt like smashing his brains in with a hammer.

Heck, in the last weeks, I even started doubting if my love for BoA was real.

That's how bad his influence was.

He toughened me up alright, to the point where I am barely feeling anything slightly emotional.

Have a nice day.