The List So Far
Due to a snowstorm, meeting Michelle was dumped. I've tried to keep in contact with her but my life got too busy in the last two (or was it three?) weeks. You guys would know, I haven't made an entry in a WHILE.
Lemme see if I can get all the names...
- Barbie
- Tyanie
- Lee Anne
- Stephanie
- Stephanie (there are two)
- Jill
- Rachael
- Emma
- Ms. Anonymous
- Adrianna
- Michelle
- Vanessa
- Carley
- Carley (there are two)
- Sydney
- Elizabeth
- Eleanor
- Monica
- Rachel
- Amanda
- Danielle
- Megan
- Katie
- Britteny
- Aline
- Deanna
- Amy
- Lea
- Anna
- Sandie
- Sarah
- Olivia
This "Crush Rush" was killing me. In two hours of loving one girl, I'm loving the next. It was torturous; loving a girl and making plans to ask them out, only to switch up and start loving another chica!
I decided to talk to Rachael about it. She's really now considered one of my best amigas (and I'm apparently one of her best guy friends) and she wanted to do a process of elimination thing after I made the list above. She knew she was one of them, but when she asked 'Which one of these girls do you think you love more?'...
...Well I was honest with her, and she was kind of shocked it was her.
I mean, seriously. Rachael is a beautiful girl with a love for theater, a sarcastic sense of humor and a love for fun (not the bad fun) and she just so much more of what I love and who I can trust.
Though I was quick to tell her that I'm one-hundred percent fine with being friends. It doesn't have to go anywhere. If she sees me only as a friend, what I am to do besides be her friend, which is exactly what I'm happy to be?
Of course, the Crush Rush is still continuing, but I still got love for Rachael. Right now, I love her as a best friend.
Last Saturday was Theater Exchange. An event made 17 years ago involving multiple schools across the state of Massachusetts where they all come over a hosting school for students to see others perform. At first I was nervous, but soon after I met the people, I felt at home again like I do on stage. I got to meet a good number of people (hey, when you have 150+ kids from other towns pop up, meeting and remembering twenty people is an accomplishment worth a load of brownie points) and we played volleyball. Of course, I owned.
We finally got to watch the performances after hanging out and going to acting classes (for the sake of enjoyment) and I've got to say, five hours of watching seven plays (including doing our play) is exhausting... for the jaw. Comedies were dominating. I don't think the shows could've ended better without 'The Underpants'. It sounds ridiculous, but if you get the chance to watch it, you'll realize the there is more innuendo in there in about 35 minutes then there are in all the BZP Chatrooms on AIM in a week combined. It's my absolute favorite play, hands down.
Days pass, nights disappear, and on Friday of the 13th day, good things happen.
Or is it good?
It might all come crashing down on me in the end, but it happens.
You see, this entry has been a draft for quite a while, and with more and more girls asking who I liked, I needed something to explain.
So I showed the girls the list above. All of the girls I've explained it to are on that list.
With about five girls knowing about the Crush Rush, you'd think I've all but ruin my plans of getting a girlfriend.
Nah.
You see, though I may or may not love one of them right now, love is not bothering me too much at the moment. On Valentines Day, I was blasting my favorite love songs in my room as a went about my day. I had nooooo pressures, no sorrow, but no complete happiness.
You know you can enjoy Valentines Day alone if you have ever truly loved someone with all your devotion.
~AA
17 Comments
Recommended Comments