What you probably know about your local Giganuva Upsilon is that he spends a lot of his nights drawing and/or playing Metroid Prime Hunters. What you probably didn't know was that he writes raps.

I recently wrote the following rap about the depression and rebirth in my life.

Please enjoy.

Finally Free

 

Giganuva Upsilon

 

For five **** years I been

Thinkin' and waitin'

For the right time to strike,

When you wasn't out datin'

 

All the people who knew this

Were laughin' and hatin'

While I stayed up ev'ry night,

Thinkin' and contemplatin'

 

About what I lost,

About what I thought I had.

Just thinkin' 'bout it ev'ry night,

It made me sad.

 

I thought the only way that I

Would ever be glad

Was by helpin' you through problems,

Through times that were bad.

 

Then one day, I fin'ly got

The opportunity

When you broke up with your boy

'Cause he was hittin' Hennessy.

 

I thought it was the perfect time

To ask you out with me.

Now, though, lookin' back,

It just wasn't meant to be.

 

(Chorus)

 

If I could take back ev'rything

I said to you,

You know I wouldn't

Take back all the things I did,

You know I couldn't

Take back all the misery,

Wouldn't do it for the world

'Cause then I wouldn't be free.

 

Take back ev'rything

I said,

You know I wouldn't

Take back all the things I did,

You know I couldn't

Take back all the misery,

Wouldn't do it for the world

'Cause then I wouldn't...

 

(End Chorus)

 

When I fin'ly got up and

Mustered up the courage

To call you at yo house

Without gettin' discouraged,

 

The phone rang three times,

Then *click* yo mamma pick up,

An' I stuttered out the lines

That took me three weeks to make up.

 

She told me that you

Had just left to go to work,

An' all the time we talkin',

I felt like such a %$#&.

 

So then I had decided;

I walked out to my car

And drove to your employers

(It wasn't very far)

 

I asked for you by name;

Yo employer went in the back.

My heart just started racin',

My mind poppin' like Black Cats.

 

I asked you for a date,

An' I guess I was a dope,

'Cause leavin' empty-handed,

I still was fulla hope.

 

(Chorus, once)

 

So without a def'nite answer,

I drove back to my place.

I wasn't too discouraged,

I was just displaced.

 

I sent my card through JMC,

Tryin' to spark a call,

But that was really useless,

My phone didn't ring at all.

 

I waited really patiently

For you to get right back to me,

But maybe, though, you cannot see

The goodness stored inside of me.

 

And then I learn that my own

****ing cousin is a **,

Telling you that I'll get shot

And that I am psycho.

 

She also told you I'm a

Stalker, and that just ain't true.

She has no real idea of what

Her words can do.

 

She thinks that she can get off

Spoutin' lies to you,

But what people say about me

Usually ain't true.

 

(Chorus, once)

 

So when I saw you down at church,

I knew what I had to do.

I casually walked up and

Just started to ask you

 

If you wanted me away,

I wanted an answer straight,

But just like in the past,

You did procrastinate.

 

And I didn't go home that night

Feelin' really great.

I was more confused,

More full of self-hate.

 

I just wanted some closure,

I fin'ly got it too,

'Cause during some band function,

James fin'ly talked to you.

 

It seems you got the number

Of the dude you really need.

Upon hearing that fact,

My soul was fin'ly freed.

 

Before I end this rap,

I'd like to leave a little bite:

If someone ever hurts you,

I'll be nowhere in your sight.

 

I gave you many chances,

You still rejected me.

But now you needn't worry

'Cause I am finally free.

 

(Chorus, fade out)

Yeah, for the sake of younger viewers, I had to *-out about three things. Not my usual sailor-speak in this one, lol.

Questions? Comments? All welcome.