As the days grow longer, the dawn beings earlier, I am reminded that the long cruel winter is almost over. This spring will be different, it is a whole new world for me now, I am alone, I have no confidant anymore. It has been a difficult time, but I think I am finally seeing my way through it.

I cannot go on as I have been, there is no point. I know I am doing the best I can, for her, for my child, and for myself. I take comfort in that, and I know that I will one day be happy again. I miss them both, its crazy, they are so close, yet so far away from me. The little time I have with my kid I cherish, we have so much fun together and it is always a heart wrenching time when she has to leave and go back to her home. I took alot of things for granted, I know its tried and true but I really did. Mostly the time I had, lost. Things left unsaid, undone and unwanted. I look forward to the future, the warmer days, the blooming flowers, it reminds me that time moves on. I see many things in a new light since I moved away, when I go to work, or at night, I take more time to take a deep breath, admire the sights, sounds and smells of the outside world.

Life is what you make it, but at times you make it impossible. Sometimes we have to remember that we are not the only ones that matter, and consider what consequences our actions will have, not only on the near, but also distant future. Spring, a time when the winds of change blow, when life begins anew, I am ready.